Life......

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Registered: 01-25-2006
Life......
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Fri, 08-11-2006 - 12:17am

I have been struggling with myself these past few weeks, wanting to crawl into my own little hole and ignore the rest of the world. My eating hasn't been great, and no I don't feel depressed or anything, just tired of the world I live in! Does that even make sense? These darned migraines are about to get the best of me, FINALLY this latest one is gone after 3 weeks of constant pain! I don't think I have gained any, but the scale does go up and down depending on what I ate. I will try to be good for a few days to get an accurate count. To make matters even more vivid is the fact that the last round of bloodwork the dr. did revealed mildly elevated cholesterol. Okay I am not even worried about that. I am worried that my BP was up, which they contributed to being in pain and taking pain meds left and right. My question now, was the BP up due to pain or was the pain due to BP being up? Either could be possible. I feel like a regular pill popper these days and I don't like that feeling. The diet for the cholesterol is the same as what I have been trying to do to lose weight. I was off track for a couple weeks before the test so I am thinking that if I can just get back on track then it will naturally go down. I am trying desperately to pull myself out of this hole before I get so far down in it that I can't see daylight. Why do I do this everytime I try to lose weight? Right now I feel like a real failure.
The bright side is the kids are back in school so it will be easier for me to concentrate on me. Now I just need to get myself back on the track to weightloss. It is time for yet another new beginning. I have to ask will I be able to start again, but I know I have to do this. For me, for my family, and most important for my health. Of course knocking dh's socks off would be nice too!!


Well here I am saying yet again, slow that train down so I can jump back on! I hope I can actually get my butt on there this time!!!

Angela


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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 08-11-2006 - 9:09am

(((((Angela))))),

What a time of it you've been having! Migraines are so debilitating and I think it's commendable that you've kept up any kind of focus on diet and exercise. When the nausea from a migraine subsides for me the only thing I can generally keep down is something starchy and not of the fruit/veg variety.

I'm jazzed about school starting too as DD will begin full-time K and DS starting 1st grade. It will be so unusual to have time for myself, but I do feel a little guilty about wanting them to both be in school.

Let's get you feeling better so you can get on the train! Annie

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Registered: 02-06-2006
Mon, 08-14-2006 - 4:12am

>>>Why do I do this everytime I try to lose weight? Right now I feel like a real failure.<<<


A failure? Not really. Remember how tickled you were to finally get below 250? Well, you're still there.. now I wouldn't call that a failure.. would you? And if it helps, don't think about it as restarting.. you were

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