Not doing so good right now....
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| Tue, 08-29-2006 - 3:24pm |
Well, I have really blown it today with my eating. I went by McDonalds for lunch and had an enormous amount of food and I just ate a whole bag of Combos. I am Bipolar (manic-depressive) and am starting to go into depression. I can feel it coming. When I'm depressed I eat. Plus, we have a tropical storm or possibly a hurricane that is expected to hit Florida this evening or tomorrow which means I'll be cooped up in my house with all the junkfood my Mom had me buy. Anyway, I also had a flat tire yesterday and my other tire was low on air pressure this morning. I have to get new tires, but can't afford it because I am on disability. So, I have to borrow money from my Grandmother and get new tires on Thursday which means I won't be able to workout at the gym until Thursday afternoon. I've been trying to go everyday but missed yesterday, today and will miss Wednesday now. I am experiencing a lot of anxiety right now because of all this plus it is part of being Bipolar. Being depressed sometimes comes with a lot of anxiety. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need to get back on track right now!!! Hopefully I can.
Jena
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Jena I'm so sorry about everything heppening right now. Is there something you can take for the depression and anxiety? I hope you feel better soon {{hugs}}
But you know what? I know you're a strong and brave woman.. and you know you can get back on track now... you've already gone a loooong way and I know you don't want a setback now.
Hang in there :)
Aiming at my
If it makes you feel better I eat fast food on a regular basis Even when I was losing, I ate it at least 2 to 3 x's a week and was still losing, all be it slowly.
I couldn't live without eating out sometimes and well with my family eating out usually means fast food. But if no one else wants to cook somedays then eat out it is cuz I won't cook every day. I don't have it in me to do everything and I told my family I refuse to try anymore.
As for the depression, well I don't know much about manic depression, but I do know about depression. I get it every month (they say I have something called PMDD), and I got it really bad after my 2nd baby and every time I tried to take the pill. Mine is due to hormones but still can get bad. I was like that last week and didn't even want to get outta bed, didn't have a clue what was going on til I started this week. I was early so threw me for a loop there. My point is it isn't easy at all to deal with it, so right now focus on you and don't let yourself beat yourself up over food so much right now cuz you have too much else going on. If you have to call your dr. Maybe your meds need adjusting. Just give yourself a big hug if htere is no one there to do it for you and hold on tight while this storm is blowing over you. Everything will be okay eventually. I know there may not appear to be any sunlight at the end but there will be!! Good luck!
Angela
I hope that things are looking brighter today, Jena.