God - What is wrong with me?

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Registered: 07-18-2006
God - What is wrong with me?
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Thu, 08-31-2006 - 2:53pm

It seems like I can only stay on track with my eating for about two days lately and then I fall off the wagon and start bingeing. I don't want to gain back anything I've lost and I can't seem to lose anymore I just maintain my weight (which is a good thing considering what I am eating). I am not much of a donut person, but I stopped and bought three donuts today and ate them all. Right after having a turkey club sandwich with bacon and mayo...God, what is wrong with me? Why can't I do this? I have went from 395 lbs to 312 lbs, but I still have 137 lbs more to go - Am I ever gonna get there? Maybe I am setting my goal too low on weight, I don't know. If I could just get under 300 lbs I would be so happy. I am feeling very overhelmed today. I am having an off day. I am Bipolar (manic-depressive) and I'm thinking my meds needs to be adjusted. I have been battling what's called a mixed episode (it's where you have mania and depression at the same time). It's been mild so far, but knowing my history I'll be in a full blow episode before long which makes me nervous. I have an appt with my pdoc on 9/12/06, maybe I should call her before then, I don't know. Hopefully, I can get back on track with this eating problem! I'm going to the gym, right now while I still have energy!!!

Jena
395-312-175

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Registered: 01-25-2006
Thu, 08-31-2006 - 3:01pm
Just call the dr and talk to her. May be that you really need to be seen now rather than later so that this doesn't get worse. I don't know a whole lot about bi-polar but I do know about meds needing to be adjusted for other medical conditions.

 

Angela

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Registered: 08-30-2006
Thu, 08-31-2006 - 3:11pm
I know how hard it is to balance weight loss and medication, I'm epileptic and one of the meds they used to have me on is also supposed to be an anti-depressant, depakote I think. It messed me up more than any amount of drinking, binging, or other things I have done to my body (and the list is rather expansive) in less than 3 months I gained 60 pounds. I talked to my doctor and after changing medication and adjusting it to where it did it's job but didn't affect the rest of my life, it seems to be going well. Talk to your doc, but don't just listen, actually talk and voice concerns, they aren't mind readers, if you aren't specific, they won't understand. I know it's hard, but when it's all over and done with, you'll feel a lot better.
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Registered: 03-01-2006
Thu, 08-31-2006 - 4:09pm

Hi, Jena!


All good advice above, and I hope you can use the nudge to contact your doctor sooner rather than later.

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Registered: 07-18-2006
Thu, 08-31-2006 - 7:23pm

Hi Guys - Just wanted to say thank you as always for your unconditioned support. I am going to call my pdoc tomorrow and see if I can see her for a few minutes. She's so busy, but she always makes time for me and never makes me feel rushed. I also was on a medication called Depakote and it made me gain over 100 lbs. I got off of it last year and have lost 83 lbs since going off of it. I just need to keep on going - Your support and advice is helping me change my outlook and I'm going to back on track RIGHT NOW!!! Anyway, thanks again!

Jena
395-312-175

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Registered: 07-31-2006
Fri, 09-01-2006 - 11:40am

Oh honey.

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Registered: 11-13-2004
Fri, 09-01-2006 - 6:52pm
Jena, I think your meds cause you to eat. I have psychosis/ multi personality disoeder. I think mental meds will do that. I am 316.5. I am very big not that I eat a lot cause I don't it'sd the med. Maryanne 322/316.5/250
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Registered: 02-06-2006
Sun, 09-03-2006 - 9:02am
Jena, how did the talk with your doctor go? Are you feeling any better now?

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