God - What is wrong with me?
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| Thu, 08-31-2006 - 2:53pm |
It seems like I can only stay on track with my eating for about two days lately and then I fall off the wagon and start bingeing. I don't want to gain back anything I've lost and I can't seem to lose anymore I just maintain my weight (which is a good thing considering what I am eating). I am not much of a donut person, but I stopped and bought three donuts today and ate them all. Right after having a turkey club sandwich with bacon and mayo...God, what is wrong with me? Why can't I do this? I have went from 395 lbs to 312 lbs, but I still have 137 lbs more to go - Am I ever gonna get there? Maybe I am setting my goal too low on weight, I don't know. If I could just get under 300 lbs I would be so happy. I am feeling very overhelmed today. I am having an off day. I am Bipolar (manic-depressive) and I'm thinking my meds needs to be adjusted. I have been battling what's called a mixed episode (it's where you have mania and depression at the same time). It's been mild so far, but knowing my history I'll be in a full blow episode before long which makes me nervous. I have an appt with my pdoc on 9/12/06, maybe I should call her before then, I don't know. Hopefully, I can get back on track with this eating problem! I'm going to the gym, right now while I still have energy!!!
Jena
395-312-175


Angela
Hi, Jena!
All good advice above, and I hope you can use the nudge to contact your doctor sooner rather than later.
Hi Guys - Just wanted to say thank you as always for your unconditioned support. I am going to call my pdoc tomorrow and see if I can see her for a few minutes. She's so busy, but she always makes time for me and never makes me feel rushed. I also was on a medication called Depakote and it made me gain over 100 lbs. I got off of it last year and have lost 83 lbs since going off of it. I just need to keep on going - Your support and advice is helping me change my outlook and I'm going to back on track RIGHT NOW!!! Anyway, thanks again!
Jena
395-312-175
Oh honey.