1st WW meeting(long)
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| Thu, 09-07-2006 - 11:12am |
Well last night was my 1st Weight Watchers meeting. I got all ready and had high hopes that this was my answer and was going to work for me. On the drive there (40mins away cause I live in the middle of no where) I started knocking my self down. By the time I got there I couldn't make my self go in. I JUST knew everyone would be staring at me and thinking man she really does need this. So I sat in my van and cried about how pathetic I am. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and the whole time I was parinoid that everyone was looking in my cart think what does she buy that makes her so fat. Its that way everwhere I go now that I feel like everyone is staring at me and thinking ewwwwwwwww.
It wasn't that way until that doctor said something the other day. Now eating is making me sick cause I'm working myself up so bad over it. Before I was like I'm big so what its nobodys business but mine. And I've had people make comments about my weight before and drs tell me to lose. So I cant figure it out. Maybe I need a Theripist instead. I'm really am confuse and self hating right now.
And the worst part of all I was so ashamed of myself last night that I lied to my wonderful DH about the meeting and told him it was cancelled. I dont lie to my DH. He's been so suppotive and never made me feel bad about my weight(he's 140 and can eat all day and not gain.) He's the one person in this world who make me feel pretty.
I'm sorry this is so long I just need to get my head straight.
Thanks so much
Cat

ohhh...((((((((((Cat))))))))))))
Let me tell ya something sweetheart:
Cat,
Big hugs to you. Even though you did not go in- you took a step. This is SUCH a hard thing to do, and you can do it. We all have struggles, and it is so hard.
As for weight watchers, it works. Meetings are great. I did it once- lost 35 lbs, then quict. My cousin did it with me- lost 80 lbs, and has kept it off for almost 3 years. It is a good program.
As for lying to DH. I feel your pain. I have done the same thing. In all honesty, I went to the grocery store on my lunch break today, and in addtion to what I needed to buy- I bought a cupcake, and scarfed it in the parking lot. I probably would not have told my DH- and he too is very supportive.
Best of luck to you. This is not always the eaisiest thing to do, but I wish you the best ;)
Kelli
Maybe WW and public meetings aren't for you. I tried WW once and I felt so bad with my weighing in (even when I lost a lot of weight that week) and the pep talks there didn't help me feel better at all. We all are different. Some people love the meetings and standing up and getting seen by others. I felt like I was humiliated, no matter how nice the other people were.
I spent my whole life heavy. I was up to 360 and felt terrible mentally. When I finally found the diet that helped me lose 160 pounds (my doctor's goal for me, but I want to lose 35 more when he gives me the say so) I had one that let me do it in private with no one but my closest family knowing that I was doing it.
I had a consultant on the diet, but I chose to contact her online or on the phone when I wanted to, and only when I needed help. And no matter how much I contacted her, because she was so great about it, because she has lost over 200 pounds herself, I felt OK about talking to her privately.
Maybe WW isn't for you right now. Do not make yourself feel bad about not going in. It was your choice, not a weakness. Maybe you need another way to lose weight. There's nothing wrong with finding a eating plan that will work for you!
Irene
Have you thought about doing Weight Watchers online?
Hey Cat,
I would agree with Irene. WW is a great program for lots of people, but it isn't for everyone. I lose weight pretty slowly and on WW a 1/2 pound a week was a big loss--something I'm reminding myself of as I'm stalling a bit. Both times I joined the group discussions were dominated by the compulsive eaters who seemed to drone on about what they couldn't have now or how much crazy cheating they did and still lost weight. (Don't get me wrong, I'm not criticizing or making light of people who eat obsessively. Whatever makes someone heavy is a challenge to deal with, it just isn't everyone's challenge.) There was one woman there who was overweight but not obese who "needed" to eat 1/2 pound of jelly beans everyday. EVERYDAY! To make matters worse she said it in baby talk: jell-wee beans!!!!! Is it any wonder why I got nothing from a meeting with people like her who complained incessantly about cutting back on her jelly bean consumption?
Anyway, maybe you should ask yourself why you chose WW in the first place. You might be able to find a way to get the benefits you are looking for some other way without the negative parts. Personally, if the point of a meeting discussion is to inspire each other and share tips I find it helpful. My experience was that the meetings were sob sessions. Good luck and stop hating yourself. You haven't done anything rotten, you just haven't found your path yet. All the best, Annie
I agree that WW isn't for everyone.
Oh boy, do I know what you're talking about. I feel the same way whenever I go grocery shopping, eat out at a resturaunt, or go out to exercise. I have days when I just know that I look like the female "Jabba the Hut" from Star Wars! I wish I knew how to make myself not feel that way, but right now I don't have a clue. I have figured out though, that most times other people are so caught up in their own problems that they really don't pay very much attention to anyone else. Well, unless someone's going nuts in the middle of the store or something, lol.
Maybe you could make a deal with yourself to go to just one WW meeting to see if its for you. You could go a little early to have time to fill out your registration and weigh in before most of the other members show up, then grab a seat in the back of the room. Check to see if your center is offering free registration right now. Mine is, but I'm not sure if its a national thing.
Geesh, I wish I could give you a hug and take you along to one of my meetings. I know its so much harder trying to take the first steps on your own, but you can do it! I'm the "Queen of Can't" and I did it!
(((Hugs)))
Kaelynn
I never did well with WW.
Maryanne
322/317.5/250
{{{{Cat}}}} It took a lot of courage to go to that meeting even if you didn't get to actually enter.. I wouldn't wave WW's off (or the meetings) just yet.. just give it one more fair chance.. like already said go early before most members go in and see how the meeting goes. If you don't like it then nobody says you have to go afterwards. But.. it may turn out to be a fabulous meeting that offers you plenty of support and encouragement.
As for the supermarket.. do you usually peak inside other people's shopping carts? Odds are they don't peak either.. people are too busy to notice or care actually.
You're a great woman.. don't make your weight hold you down.. you are not your weight and if anybody judges you then I really feel sorry for that person for being so shallow.