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Depressed
| Sun, 09-10-2006 - 6:31pm |
I used to love having pics taken of me. Lately, I feel so depressed when I look at them. I have no motivation whatsoever!! I'm looking into weight loss surgery. Hopefully when it's submitted this time my new insurance covers it. I just seem to hate myself more and more for having problems with food. I'm an emotional eater. Ok, I just had to vent.

I can completely relate to your feelings of depression. I'm down about 20 or 25 pounds from my top weight and starting to see changes in my size--down to the 18/20 range. I was finally feeling pretty good about my progress and then today DH turned his new camcorder on me. Holy crap! He wasn't recording, just showing it on the TV and I almost screamed. I'm determined though to lose that mindset. I don't want others to turn on me or be repulsed because of my exterior, why should I do that to myself? No one knows more than I do how hard I'm trying and that I've made progress. Even surgery won't change your weight problem overnight and some people have side effects and even worse body image problems post-surgery. I'm not trying to talk you out of it, but please try to think better of yourself. We are all so much more than just our weight, just our size--even normal weight people. All the best, Annie
Maryanne
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Pictures are usually depressing for me too.. even after I lost some weight I still dread being caught off guard in a picture.. But what really lift me up is that dh saw a picture of me at a company gathering and he was like: you don't look like that! So a little bit of relief there LOL
Tell you what.. why don't you join us here for a while.. until your new insurance kicks in.. and try losing some weight with diet & exercise. You may chose you like it better than the surgery and even if you don't then you have a head start with the weight loss.. you have nothing to lose there :)
I hope you decide to join us.. we really understand where you're coming from and I bet everyone here passed with the same pictures experience and frustrations you're describing. Good luck in your journey (whatever you decide)