I feel awful.....

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I feel awful.....
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Wed, 09-13-2006 - 10:56pm

I feel just awful right now. I don't know what is going on with me but my mind and heart just isn't with anything right now. I seriously feel like I don't care about anything in this whole world. I know I am most likely hormonal and that is the biggest reason I feel like this but I feel like

 

Angela

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 7:40am

I'm hormonal right now and I"m doing the same things.. very sad and worried for no reason.. snap at people for no reason.. and hungry all day.. but I do manage to eat healthy stuff cuz I don't have any other choice.. my house doesn't have any junk right now (hey we finished the month supply of Doristos in a week!)


Hey how about you go have a new haircut or die your hair or have a manicure or something.. even get your nails polished yourself and dress up even if you are sitting at home.. that usually lifts my spirits up. You know makeup, perfume.. the whole thing LOL (I'm silly right?)


Remember that slipping up is not the problem.. the problem is to keep slipping up until it's the norm.

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 8:13am

Ah Angela, that just sucks! I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Maybe you need a distraction like Mary suggested. One thing that I pop in and out of is FlyLady.net which has tons of tips for organizing your home life that are really pretty painless and even lazy ol' me can do them. (I think they have an IVillage board for FlyBabies.) One of the activities is called the Super Fling Boogie--uh, yeah, it's totally corny--where you go into a room where you have a trouble spot like the dining room table or a junk drawer and you toss out 29 things. This really comes in handy when you don't have time to do any real tasks (like when it's almost time for me to walk to the kids' bus stop) and you think "Maybe just a couple of pretzels..."

I hope you can turn the corner soon. YOu must be getting so frustrated.

Hugs,
Annie

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 9:19am

You just don't know how frustrated I am. I am to the point I was researching online diets last night; ediets, weightwatchers online etc, but I just can't see spending that much on it so..........once again I am going to go at it alone. I am so upset with myself for paying the YMCA membership and I haven't been in 2 months!! I really need to get back to going there too, but I have to go soooo early to be able to use the child watch program (8-10 am) or I have to go 4-7 and they are usually packed then.


I sat down last night and really thought about all this and I am going to try really hard to get through this week without gaining the 2 lbs I lost last week back and then try really hard to focus on this. I am just so moody, and as I counted it up, it is accurate timing if I am going to have another "normal" cycle which is also really flooring me. WHAT THE H--- IS GOING ON WITH MY BODY??? I mean seriously it needs to make up it's mind already. To be honest I am praying that it isn't a normal cycle, I will be kidless this weekend and that is the LAST thing I want to deal with. How can I go have fun if I am dealing with that? ARRRGHHH


Getting my hair done: I just did that a little while back, cut, highlight, the works, so won't spend money to do anything else, I am not big into the whole nail and makeup thing so......Makeup makes me break out worse so I try to avoid it whenever I can. I have my girls home from school since they have parent report day today. I have to go to school tonight in their place.....LOL ain't that gonna be fun. I have to take my midterms today and tommorrow and do my hw for the weekend so that I can be FREE this weekend to have fun whenever however without ANY responsibility. Get this my midterm for 1 class is 2 hours long and only 20 questions. Yea that shouldn't be too difficult. SO anyways, thanks for your tips and kind words, I am going to work on getting out of my funk for now and not worry quite as much about food and maybe if I just don't worry about it, it will be better. Somehow everytime I try to MAKE myself do without something I crash and burn so I need to figure out how to get back to my mindset I was in a few months ago. Where fast food wasn't that big of a deal. Actually I am kinda sick of it but can't get dh to do anything else ont he nights I dont cook. Oh well.........


 

Angela

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 9:41am
Time for you to crank up the stereo with some tunes you loved when you were 18 and have an escape from reality flashback. Whatever it was that made you feel like you could do anything. (I put on old--yeah, really old--U2 and suddenly I'm that kid who was going to change the world. "TWO HEARTS beat as O N E !!" Man, I'm loud!) I'm not much on girly distractions either, but I know you can get out of the funk! Annie
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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 1:37pm

I like that song...LOL


I want to go fishing with dh this weekend, and just do things with him like when we had no kiddos to beg someone watch. That is why I LOVE it when my folks get them cuz it is a free for all for more than a few hours. Don't get me wrong, his mom watches them some but I worry about them the WHOLE TIME we are out and with my folks I don't. I know what a great mom mine is...LOL and I know there far more folks there to help keep an eye out for them than just her and she has to deal with Dh's nephew who has cerebal

 

Angela

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 2:10pm
Homemade food rocks, especially pizza. (Not to toot my own horn too much, but I'm a pretty fine cook and it's hard to be satisfied with restaurant stuff.) I know what you mean about being away from your kids when they are with someone you don't like them to be with. Mine slept over at my SIL's last Friday and it was barely worth the time alone. (She didn't pick them up until 7:40 more than 2 hours later than she was supposed to and they would have been in bed by 8 if they were at home--wiped out from the long week! When she dropped them off in the morning they were a complete MESS with almost no sleep. Argh!) Hope you get a little rest! Annie
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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 2:20pm

Hi, Angela. I'm a newbie. I don't have any great advice to give, but I have gone through that kind of thing myself. It took me a while to work through the mood and get back on track. I just took it a day at a time and tried to be kind to myself. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Don't be too hard on yourself. Life's a long journey full of high mountains and deep, deep valleys.

Many, many ((((HUGS)))!

Kaelynn :o)

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 6:27pm
I'm so sorry to hear about you feeling down.
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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 7:54pm

Ohhh, Angela.

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Fri, 09-15-2006 - 10:18pm

Angela,

(((((hugs))))) we all have bad days, even bad weeks and hormones suck. I know. Hang in there and you will get around this and back on track. You can do it.

We are here for you.

Hugs & prayers
Cat

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