In the black hole

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Registered: 01-27-2004
In the black hole
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Wed, 12-06-2006 - 3:18pm

I've had major depression all my life (I'm in treatment right now), but the last few days it's been so bad, a co-worker asked me if I'm all right and said I don't seem like myself.

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Registered: 11-15-2006
Wed, 12-06-2006 - 3:37pm

I wish I could give you a big hug. I'm good at that! You have to believe in yourself. How many people can say they passed the qualifying test for Jeopardy? (I read your profile) That is awesome! I've only found this group today, but they seem supportive here and I believe you will find the support you need. I am sending huge hugs your way!

Lisa

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Registered: 07-20-2003
Wed, 12-06-2006 - 4:54pm

OMGoodness... Sweetie, I can relate to your pain. I have battled depression all my life - started to get help for it about 10 years ago, and it takes time, but there is life at then end of the darkness of depression. If they put you on meds - it takes about 2 weeks for them to take effect.

I don't usually post, but your post made me want to cry. I feel for you soo much. Just don't give up. When you feel like it's the end and you can't take it anymore. Look at the clock and tell yourself, that you can hang in there for another fifteen minutes - go take a shower or knit or *gasp* exercise ;), cut up some celery, if you are at work, get into a project, make a checklist of things you want to accomplish for a week and prioritze them - clean out your email - anything to start to get you occupied for that fifteen minutes and before you know it, you are into something else and it's an hour later. And you were totally able to make it those fifteen minutes you gave yourself.

I know it's easier said then done, and believe me if you read my post on here you can see it's not always easy to practice what you preach - but I plan on taking my own advice and getting thru fifteen minutes at a time when I am emotionally overeating.

I also would like for you to post 10 things you DO like about yourself - or what other people like in you.

Are you a hard worker? Great work ethic? Are you compassionate with other people? Do you have beautiful eyes or a smile? Do your boobs make men forget to look at your face? ;) What are you proud of?

List them for us, because we can see your strengths then, but more importantly YOU can see your strengths.

*gives her a huge hug*

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Registered: 07-31-2006
Wed, 12-06-2006 - 4:57pm

Hugs to you!

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Registered: 01-25-2006
Wed, 12-06-2006 - 8:16pm
It sucks to try to work through depression. I know cuz when I lost my dream job, and everything else I had 8-9 years ago, I was in a really bad way, and I would fall apart at work. So kudos to you for keeping it together and not crying at your desk, cuz I did hide and cry at work on numerous occasions and even had to go home a few times at the request of my manager. I could tell you that things will be better but I know you wouldn't believe me if I did. Fact is things always look grim when you are depressed and in a bad way, and no one can make you believe they will change. All I can say for sure, and you can take this to the bank, is OBVIOUSLY you are a very strong individual and you have plenty of reasons to be kind to yourself. You have had many hardships in life and you have survived. That means you can survive this too.

 

Angela

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Registered: 02-06-2006
Thu, 12-07-2006 - 6:48am
Don't you dare label yourself like that. From your posts I (and I bet everybody else here) can tell that you are an exceptional woman. You are very loving & caring, you ace at your job (did that new employee "get it" yet or are you still teaching her?), and above all you're a survivor. I pray you pull through very soon because you deserve to be happy

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Registered: 12-03-2006
Sun, 12-10-2006 - 1:13pm

I literaaly just read your profile and then read this post. As I was reading your profile, I though what a strong person you are, with all you have been through. I am asking you to now belive that and see that in yourself. I see that your post was from a few days ago. What did you do or say to yourself to get you through that difficult moment? Remember it, keep it in case you ever need it again. You have everyone at this board, which is a wonderful thing. If you feel down, post and someone is there for you. I know it is hard when things feel bad to se that they do not always have to be that way, but it is true. I think the advice someone gave you to do something for 15 minutes is great. Just physically keep yourself busy, let a little time pass and maybe things will seem a little better. My thoughts are with you.

Liz