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| Wed, 12-06-2006 - 4:28pm |
I actually posted this on the 100+ Club - I got confused on which board I usually visit - I didn't even know there was a 100+ Club. Anway..
I don't usually post much, but this week was so tough I kinda just wanted to blog.
My boyfriend and I broke up right before thanksgiving - Thanksgiving itself was just too darn yummy, and with the depression of the break up, I can't stop being hungry.
Friday night, my son was at his dad's and I was supposed to go out with friends, but that fell thru so I kept thinking about my boyfriend (is still have a hard time thinking of him as an ex) and actually drove to Dunkin Donuts and bought a dozen donuts. I came home and ate eight of them - and Dunkin made a mistake and gave me 14 donuts - so there were so many in the box. I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up, I felt like an alcoholic that had fallen off the wagon after a year and a half of being sober.
One of my online friends talked me thru it, and with her help, I gave the remaining 6 donuts (do you notice I count?? :( ) to my neighbor.
I did end up going out that night, and let the guy who has been trying to pick me up for a while at the club we go to, succeed. Of course a bandaid doesn't stop the hurt.
and it's cold so I havent walked this week yet at all (I did use thigh master though) I'm soo trying to get back on track. This weight loss so far has been the easiest thing I had ever done, and now I'm struggling cause of these emotions.
I know I am rambling and whining, I'm sorry about that... I am just so frustrated right now with myself and battling emotional eating :(
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Hey.
I agree, you are both more important than a man!!
You both have come so far to cave now!!
Kim, you should post more often, tell us when you are succeeding as well. You have lost a lot of weight already, heck you may be able to teach someone else something. Good luck working through your emotions, and good luck getting back on track. You can do this.
Angela
Angela
You did a great job giving the rest of those donughts away.. and you did an awesome job using the thigh master. And you did a great job going out with that guy.. if anything, you're trying to move forward.. and that's something to applaud. Breaking up with someone is tough.. and during this time of the year it's even tougher... but you can survive it.
You've lost 75 pounds.. wow! SEVENTY FIVE POUNDS!! You don't want to undo this.. I bet you warked your tail off for it and you don't want to do this twice.. I know I wouldn't! Forgive yourself for the slipups and move forward.. move forward for YOU.
Please update us?
alright, I went out and got apples and watermelon fruits that I love, to try and get thru this - because I am SOOOO ready to just binge like crazy. I figure if I do binge then I can make microwave baked apples with splenda and cinnamon... Cause I like that and it wll help my sweet cravings. Even if I eat five of them, it's still better than five donuts, yes?
This morning, I was driving to work, and got a flat - had to get 2 new tires :( They were bald (both my front ones) but I had hoped they would last thru Christmas - of course no luck. So now I'm out $150. Which is really a lot right now. I don't know what I'm gonna use for Christmas for my son. For the rest of my family, I'll be going to Thrift Shops and getting kitzchy things that I can personalize or w/e.
And I know what you guys are saying that I am more than my boyfriend, it's just he has done so much for me, health wise and stress wise. He was a balance and a calmness for me. With him I felt like I could do ANYTHING (hence the weight loss) And now I feel very alone and can't seem to stop crying today (course, I had very little sleep last night - tossed and turned about money and work AND I am PMSing) gahhhh!!!
Where the heck is the stop button on this ride?? I want to get off and go home :(
Once I do get back on track, I will try to post more about positive stuff and how I have been successful so far. Right now though with the struggle I feel like a hypocrit.
Bless your heart. Seriously who in the world come up with stress?? They need
Angela