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HELP! :( Need support!
| Sun, 01-14-2007 - 8:16pm |
My hubby and I have been on our diet for a few weeks...So far I have lost 30 Pounds! I was doing sooo great and was so proud of myself..In part because I was doing it the RIGHT way. I have battled bulimia since I was 12. I would lose weight then gain it back when I stopped. I was even hospitalized when I was 16. And this time I wanted to do it the right way.
Well I have been doing great..eating tons of veggies and drinking lots of h2o. We went to the gym 3 days a week and walked at least a mile a day. Then Friday night....We had a Foot long chili cheese dog. And didnt stop there. I had a snickers later. Saturday did great all day. Saturday night we had company and they ordered pizza. Well we had 4 PIECES and icecream. And today I have been an emotional mess. I did good all day then tonight I binged!!! I mentally fought myself afterwards but ended up making myself throw up. And it felt great! I felt like I was punishing myself for overeating and for allowing myself to get this heavy again!! This is scaring me! I dont want to go through this all over again!
I think I am going to call my Dr. Tues. to see about being seen. I want to stop this before it starts again.
The only good thing about this weekend is that I still did my excersising.
Tomorrow is a new day! We are going to the gym at 8 in the morning. Can everyone please send me supporting vibes that I can get back on track again. I want this so bad. I want to be HEALTHY and do it the HEALTHY way! I want to be here for my kids.
Thanks so much for listening..It is so nice to have such wonderful people to talk to about things we are all dealing with. -Lisa
347-317-160
Well I have been doing great..eating tons of veggies and drinking lots of h2o. We went to the gym 3 days a week and walked at least a mile a day. Then Friday night....We had a Foot long chili cheese dog. And didnt stop there. I had a snickers later. Saturday did great all day. Saturday night we had company and they ordered pizza. Well we had 4 PIECES and icecream. And today I have been an emotional mess. I did good all day then tonight I binged!!! I mentally fought myself afterwards but ended up making myself throw up. And it felt great! I felt like I was punishing myself for overeating and for allowing myself to get this heavy again!! This is scaring me! I dont want to go through this all over again!
I think I am going to call my Dr. Tues. to see about being seen. I want to stop this before it starts again.
The only good thing about this weekend is that I still did my excersising.
Tomorrow is a new day! We are going to the gym at 8 in the morning. Can everyone please send me supporting vibes that I can get back on track again. I want this so bad. I want to be HEALTHY and do it the HEALTHY way! I want to be here for my kids.
Thanks so much for listening..It is so nice to have such wonderful people to talk to about things we are all dealing with. -Lisa
347-317-160

Congratulations on your progress to date. You do know that your progress is really speedy don't you? You should feel very proud of how far you've ocme. One perspective that I would like to offer you is that just because you lapsed doesn't mean you have failed. One of the biggest challenge is that unlike a true addiction, no matter how many food problems we struggle with, we still need it to live. Right now you have a chance to ask yourself if all that extra eating made you feel any better. Did it make you happier? Probably not. At the same time, do you think there might be room to incorporate an occasional treat or splurge into your diet? Sometimes denying yourself completely makes you obsess about what you're not having. Your bad habits didn't develop overnight, they aren't going to just disappear, and often our mistakes and missteps teach us far more than our successes. Hang in there, Annie
You are totally right! Eating all that stuff did NOT make me happier..actually felt worse afterwards. I am an emotional eater and just had a really bad weak. Someone very close to me died and I had her funeral. She was only 38. Then I found out it was suicide.
So I am going to really work to find smething else to do when I am upset..like take a walk. Thanks so much for listening! And thanks for the advice!!!! -Lisa
Lisa, I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Suicide makes it even more difficult to deal with. My supporting vibes are on the way!
Also, don't beat yourself up for eating unplanned foods. I'm losing at a MUCH slower rate than you, yet I still want to build in times where I'm allowed to eat what I want for a meal, maybe once a month, and then I will go back to my plan guilt-free. And there are those unplanned splurges too; it all comes with being human. I am trying to think and eat like a "normal" thin person would, and every one I've ever known overeats occasionally, but goes back to "being good" for most of the time. I can live with that.
If you aren't already, I'd strongly suggest you keep a food diary. Not only does it show exactly what goes into your mouth, good or bad, but I think it makes it easier to start over again at the next meal or the next day; a fresh, clean page is very inspiring!
Don't get sucked into the numbers on the scale as your motivation! It's all about changing your eating habits for life and changing your attitudes about food. It's not an easy thing. Keep up the good work and focus on other parts of your life than eating; the weight will come off!
Mary #3
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Welcome aboard Lisa, and congratulations on the massive success you had so far.
I really have nothing more to say, PP's said it all
Angela
I hope that today is feeling like a better day. I did want to mention though that in no way did I want to discourage you from contacting your doctor to discuss your urge to purge. I guess though I'd also want to ask if that made you feel better or worse all these years later. How's your sweetie feeling about going off track? I hope you both have your focus back. Hugs, Annie
Brightest Blessings
~Dayle~