I lost Round Two

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I lost Round Two
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Sun, 02-04-2007 - 9:39pm

After doing so well on Friday, I fell apart tonight.


I went to an Irish dance concert today, an annual event I always enjoy.

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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 12:05am

(((Mary))) I'm so sorry that happened. Things like that are very hurtful, but thin people have no compunction about making fun of fat people. At least the father did the right thing and chewed him out (hopefully). Are the adults nice to you? Maybe the kid learned an important lesson today, though I'm sorry it was at your expense.

You said the magic words though: you'll be back on track tomorrow morning. No matter how many times we fall off the wagon, the important part is getting back on or we'll never get where we're going. You've been so strong lately, so you know that you can be. Tomorrow will be a fresh new day! I'm hoping for some of that attitude myself.

I've been a little careless the last couple of days, since I saw a number I didn't want on the scale. But I'm resolving to start fresh tomorrow and be extra careful about what goes into my mouth. Once I get the momentum going again, I'll be fine, and so will you, Mary. We can do this!!

Take care~

Mary #3
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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 7:02am

Mary, I'm so sorry you had to go through this. It wasn't an easy night, but as you said, relapces are expected and it happens to us all the time. Never mind this minor setback,

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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 9:16am
Mary, I am afraid to say it never gets easier, my mom still falls apart and it has been over 40 yrs now since my sister died. It isn't an easy thing to deal with, and it is just something you learn to cope with as you are doing. A slip up is okay, but like you said you get right back on track. Great attitude there. And hugs for missing your precious girl.

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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 9:50am

(((Mary))),
You were kicked when you were already down. That smarts no matter what your size! That kid was obnoxious! Still kids and adults can see our size. My DD (5 1/2) asked me last week if I was always "this way." At first I didn't know what she meant. I was doing something goofy at the time and I thought she meant silly or funny. Then she said "Well, I mean like this..." and indicated my puffiness with her little hands. She said, "There's a word for it but I don't want to say it and hurt your feelings." I said, "Do you mean fat?" Yep! Ouch, but I AM fat and told her it was okay for us to talk about it! Then she said the best thing of all, "Well you might be fat Mom, but you're lots of other things too! Really wonderful things!" Out of the mouths of babes! You are too, Mary! Fat, okay? But LOTS of other things too! Really wonderful things. Please try to put yesterday in perspective and get past it. You're so much more than the grief, so much more than the target for a bratty kid, so much more than someone who gave in to a food fix!

Hang in there!
Annie

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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 11:14am

Hi Mary,

Im sorry you're feeling so low. I don't think any amount of time can ease the pain of losing a child!

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Mon, 02-05-2007 - 2:35pm

Just sending some ((hugs)) your way. I know you have been trying hard. Keep at it and don't let your misstep set you off course. That is one thing I hope to change this time around. Not letting my failures cause me to just give up! Every day is a new day as corny as it sounds. I know, I use to just laugh at people who spoke in such positive tones, I would call them fake. Harsh! But as I struggle and fail (ok, so even failure is kind of harsh) I finally see I have to keep trying. We owe it to ourselves. We are worth it!

Betsy