Here is my story about why I am here!

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Registered: 02-22-2007
Here is my story about why I am here!
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Fri, 02-23-2007 - 8:59pm

Hello Everyone:

My name is Tamara and my screen name on here is snuggle_bunnie 99.I am a newbie to this board and I have reached a point in my life where I have to take a real long look at myself in the mirror and realize that I need to do something about my weight and soon. If I don't I could develop diabetes,have a heart attack,have a stroke,etc.. I am currently on medication for high cholesterol and just within two months of starting my high cholesterol medication,my high cholesterol has gone from 225,down to 175,and I am so happy!If I am not mistaken your cholesterol should be below 200. Anyway,I have just decided that I am tired of being tired constantly! I am tired of my lower back hurting when I walk alot,I am tired of feeling huge,and I am tired of my clothes not looking very nice on my body. I am currently 5'6 inches tall and please don't laugh or gasp,but I am currently at 334 pounds and I feel so ashamed about it! I feel like I have really let myself go,and I don't enjoy going shopping or even going out to eat because I feel like people are staring at me,or talking about me behind my back,making fun of my weight.

I have a pear shaped body,and I have a big butt just like the pop singer Jennifer Lopez,and I wish my bottom wasn't so big. I am also on medication for high blood pressuren,and I also suffer from hypothyroidism,which means that my thyroid doesn't produce enough of the thyroid hormone on it's own,so I have to take medication every day for the rest of my life,so my thyroid will be producing the right amount of thyroid hormone. I have been heavy all of my life and if I don't start dieting and exercising and start eating a more balanced and healthy diet,I could die from a massive heart attack like my father did,and my father also had diabetes too. My father developed diabetes before my mother died when I was 27,I am currently 35,and my dad got to a point where he ate whatever he wanted without caring what the consequences were. He ate candy,apples which are full of sugar,and fast food constantly. I know that alot of people claim that someone can't die from a broken heart,but I believe he honestly did! It was after my mother died that my dad just gave up on life itself and ate whatever he wanted,even when I offered to come to his house and cook nutritious meals for him,he wouldn't let me.

I have just made up my mind,that if it takes one year,two years,three years,or whatever,I am bound and determined to start eating more healthy,watching my portions,not eating so many bad carbs such as white bread,rice,pasta,etc...I am currently under my doctor's guidance and care and I am exercising every day for one hour(Walking at a brisk pace),and I am also lifting Five pound weights,three days a week too.I want my daughter and husband to be proud of me,and I have their support along with my doctor's support! My doctor HAS NEVER made fun of my weight,or lectured me about it,I think he could just tell that my weight really bothered me! My doctor has given me a diet to follow which basically ranges from 1600-1800 calories a day! My doctor said that THE LOWEST amount of calories that he would want me to go down to is 1400,if I am not losing weight following the 1600 calorie diet. Has anyone else ever reached a point their life where they are sick and tired of not being able to buy clothes off of the rack? Has anyone else felt like when you go out to eat at a restaurant that people are staring at you and thinking that just because you are a plus sized person,that all you must do is eat,which couldn't be further from the truth! I think that the thing that really bothers me about people who are just naturally skinny,is that they don't understand how it feels to be looked at,stared at,or made to feel embarrassed because you are a plus size person!

I have come here because I wanted to tell all of you that I know EXACTLY how it feels to be a plus size person! That is why I have decided to take control of my life and no matter how long it takes,I am determined to change my heart,my soul,and my lifestyle in gerneral,so I can prevent myself from having a stroke,heart attack,or developing diabetes because I am a heavy set woman. I know that it is going to be a very difficult road,but with alot of people's support,I know that I can do it!! I have faith in all of you too,and if you ever need to talk,laugh,cry,vent,or whatever,I am here for you even if I am a newbie!! *Giggles* Thank you for making me feel so loved and welcomed on here,I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart!! ;-) ((((HUGS)))) Tamara,my screen name is snuggle_bunnie99. :-)

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Registered: 12-31-2006
Fri, 02-23-2007 - 10:13pm

Welcome! This is such a great board with such wonderful supportive people who have great ideas and advice without being judgemental. There are some fun challanges too. Hope you stay with us!

Colleen

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Registered: 01-25-2006
Sat, 02-24-2007 - 10:31am
Tamara many of us have reached that point you are talking about. I wish you much success at a healthier you.

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Registered: 10-25-2003
Sun, 02-25-2007 - 9:51am

HI Tamara

welcome and hope to hear from you often. many people start losing weight for exactly the reasons you are doing it.

i am a weight watcher maintainer, it took me close to 4 years to lose 167 pounds. I have been at goal 3+ years. the key is whatever program you choose, you need to combine it with exercise and drinking enough water. You will need to change your frame of mind that you are not dieting but changing your lifestyle to one you can live with the rest of your life.

good luck, post often.

Sue
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Sue

 

 

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Registered: 09-26-1999
Mon, 02-26-2007 - 2:09am

I totally identify with you. It's just a matter of time before my Dr. puts me on medication, so I'm trying to head that off. It is SUCH a coincidence that you and I are the same starting weight! I too sometimes feel that people are just staring at me when I'm in a restaurant or standing in line somewhere. It's a horrible feeling and I'm tired of living this way. We can get through this together though. I'm really glad there are others who understand.

-TG

 

 

 


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Registered: 02-06-2006
Mon, 02-26-2007 - 8:10am

Welcome to the board Tamara, we're glad you're joining us.


Many of the things you said in your post really clicks with me. I started wanting to lose weight pretty much for the same reasons. I was tired of how tired I felt and how clothes never looked really good and how it's a pain to go shopping.


Congratulations on starting on your diet plan, and congratulations on all the exercise you're getting. I wish you plenty of success.


Post often and tell us how you're doing. Looking forward to your posts

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