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| Fri, 03-23-2007 - 7:45am |
when i was in highschool i was the odd girl, dyed hair, quiet, shy, artsy, fat. i got picked on, but i brushed it off as people being ignorant. i didn't mind being the "artsy fat one", because i had no desire to date, or wear the clothes other girls wore, i hated make-up, and still do...
however, it has gotten to the point that i don't like shopping because i get tired, my feet hurt, my lower back hurts doing the simplest of things, and do not get me started on shopping for clothes. i've always been a tomboy at heart, i hate most girls clothes. no matter what size i am, you'll never catch me in a girlie outfit it's just not me. however i'd like to be able to buy clothes without wanting to cry because i'm too over weight to fit into them. i want to be able to walk up hill without thinking i'm going to have an asthma attack or worse a heart attack. these are things a 23 year old shouldn't have to worry about.
what's worse about all this is i am no longer able to have children (never ever ever wanted them) however even "if" i did change my mind, i no longer can, in 2005 i ended up having an endometrial eblation i could of opted not to have one, but since im so unhealthy at this point i decided i couldn't run of the risk of ever getting pregnant (i know over-weight) women do all the time, and that's not the only reason i decided not to have children. I'm also bipolar with other things on top of it...(it doesn't bother me...) because i've never wanted or felt the need to have children. (call me odd, but it's not something i desire.) but it's sure been a wake up call, that i've let my weight go so far that it's taken that away.
i need to change, i want to change, i just don't have a clue where to start.
i have made it abundantly clear to anyone who tells me diet pills or surgery will be the best option for me, because i do NOT want to do either. pills never work, and since im on disability (long story) im not about to spend money stupidly for a gimmick that won't work and could have severe repercussions for doing so. i might be 303lbs, but i do "not" think that i am a lost cause, i mean im only 23.
i do not want to be stick thin, i would love to be 160 - 145lbs, hell at this point i'd take 175lbs. i know this isn't something that comes over night, and i know that i have to make life changes, this isn't a game anymore.
i need to do something with my weight before i end up unable to move, or dead.
so that's my story and im new here. so i thought i'd write this out. hope no one minds!

Of course we don't mind sweetie. Don't beat yourself up for being "odd" as you say. There are lots of gals out there who never want children, who are loners, tomboys and the such. There isn't anything wrong with that.
You took the first MAJOR step to this whole journey and that is admitting you need to do this and you need to this for you, for your health. I wish you the most success, and welcome you to the board.
Have you thought of how you would like to go about this? I recommend small changes made 1 at a time, for instance, if you don't drink water start. Start slow and work your way up to at least the recommended 64 oz a day. Right now I am not completely to that point but I am putting forth the effort to get there. I tried several times to just do it and get the weight off and could never stick to it, but doing it 1 change at a time seems to be easier for me. GOOD LUCK!!
Angela
Hi and Welcome!!!
You have lots of options as long as you have determination. I am one of those people who was always fat, for as long as I can remember. I also went through high school that way. I have lost weight in the past, when I was 24, in fact 100lbs, by using a pill with ephedera, when I found out the serious risks I stopped taking the pill and gained the weight back. I am now about to turn 30 and I resolved that it was time. I set a date, I read alot of information and I picked and chose what I wanted to work with. My date was Oct 9th and I have since lost almost 50lbs. Its not easy and I am constantly adjusting things in my plan, but my plan fits me and how I eat and how I live. Water is very important, and one thing I read suggests 1 ounce of water for every 2lbs of weight everyday. I drink between 4 and 5 liters. Fiber intake is important, you can get it from fruits and veggies, there is a cereal that can give you your total amount of daily fiber intake in 2 servings. Eating small meals frequently throughout the day boosts your metabolism. I am not a morning person but I start eating by 9am and I eat somthing every two hours until around 7pm. I use a website to input all my foods so I can be sure I am taking in the right amount of calories. I also excercise. I lift handweights several times a week and I do cardio at least 3-4 times a week. I am one of the people who has to force myself to excercise because I have a hard time getting started, but I enjoy it once I am doing it and feel good afterwards. So really I guess all of this is my longwinded way of saying that you have to find what works for you and you have already found a group of people who will support you. Good Luck!!!