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| Sun, 05-13-2007 - 8:56am |
Hi all.. I think I may have reached rock bottom, perhaps that's where I should be to get serious about my health. I'm in my 50s; have been hefty now for about 27 years, getting heftier, and though I can't stand the way I look (no mirrors in my house!), I don't seem to be motivated to do a dad-gone thing about my weight. I have a job which requires me to not only sit in front of the computer, but to work at home as well...I can go a week or more without leaving the house and am beginning to wonder if I've become a little agoraphobic. Interestingly, though, when I finally do leave and go run errands or whatever, I'm in no hurry to come back to the house. I used to love to go to the fitness center and do my workout (the treadmill was the pits though, I'd rather walk around the block); now, I pay the dues but don't go. Maybe it's just a matter of how much I want to change, yet I'm so ashamed of how I look...I hate to introduce myself to people and even more hate to be the fattest person in the room. I'm not sure why I'm here, I just know that I have to make a change.
I have a real fear of losing the weight and then having the skin hanging down like disgusting crepe paper.. lousy excuse for not losing weight, but a reality to me.
Thanks for "listening."

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Thanks for asking. I had my hair done yesterday, so I parked quite a distance away from the shop and considered that my walking for the day. ? I know it didn't amount to ten minutes, and that is probably all I can hope for, at least for the time being. I'm back on OT, 9-hour days starting at 3:00 a.m., so wish me luck that I'll at least take ten minutes out after work and do some walking before collapsing in a puddle on the couch, overly tired.
I appreciate the encouragement. ~ Anna
Welcome to the board Anna.
Annie
"We do not think ourselves into new ways of living. We live ourselves into new ways of thinking."  
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