Maryanne, I want you to know that we are here for you and we are on your side.
I'd like to talk to you off the board about a couple of things, but if you can't or don't want to do that, it's ok.
I hope that you are continuing to journal about your food and that you can be really honest about it.
I haven't tried WW online, but years ago I did the meeting thing. It was great! Till I stopped going to the meetings. And yes, as someone said, it can be hard at times with all the calculations and points. You do have to plan your meals and check points all the time.
Sorry you're going through a rough time, hopefully people at this board can assist you through your weight loss journey. You said in your post that you would "do anything to lose weight". Set your mind to it, work hard at it (and I mean really work at it), and you can do it!!!