Give me strength, this has to stop!

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Give me strength, this has to stop!
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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 1:22pm
Somebody help! I'm hopelessly stuck in a bad food eating binge. Can't figure what triggered this but I'm eating anything and everything in sight. I pack up nice, healthy lunches for work then leave them to rot in the fridge and eat the steak sandwich at the cafeteria. To my credit, I did skip the fries, grilled onions and peppers and the cheese on the sandwich, but just the same, the guilt is killing me! Traded all those toppings for a chocolate chip cookie to top it off.

Twice this week I've stopped on the way home at Burger Doodle for a sandwich. I pack extra fruit in my lunch bag so I can start munching the minute I leave the building and head for home. Then it's a nice peanut butter sandwich while I fix the 'real' supper. I usually have no appetite in the summer, but this year is different.

I'm getting a little stressed and/or depressed about this. Not a happy camper right now.

Lori (get that chocolate away from me....no! bring it here!)

Lori

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 1:33pm
Lori-

I swear you've been peaking in my journal. This is exactly what had been going through. Recently I've watched "Making the Connection" with Bob Greene and Oprah Winfrey during workouts and for inspiration several times. I jotted down a few things that I put in my journal that meant something to me. I'll share it with you and I hope it helps.

Make the Connection 10 Steps

1. Exercise 5-7 days per week

Your metabolism is the slowest in the morning. You need to boost your metabolism with a workout first thing in the morning

2. Exercise in the zone

3. Cardio 20-60 minutes each session

4. Eat a low fat, balanced diet each day

5. Eat 2 fruits and 3 vegetables each day

6. Eat 3 meals and 2 snacks each day

7. Limit or eliminate alcohol

Alcohol slows the metabolism and makes you less willing to get in your workouts…who cares attitude

8. 6 to 8 glasses of water each day

9. Stop eating 2-3 hours before bedtime. Your metabolism starts slowing down in preparation for sleep.

10. Renew your commitment to healthy living each day.

Keeping a journal renews your commitment each day.

Here are just a few things that meant something to me in the video.

There’s nothing than can speak to the accomplishment that in the start, seemed impossible.

Have the vision for yourself, believe in yourself and be willing to work hard to get something you say is important.

You say you want it. Why haven’t you done it yet?

Power is strength over time. You do it every day and you get stronger. You get power.

If you are willing to work to get something…nothing is impossible.

Dorothy of the Wizard of Oz is one of the great spiritual stories. What you really needed was inside of you all the time.

Live With Passion!

Phyllis

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 1:44pm
No solid solutions - just a pep talk...

Know how everybody always says it's the mother's fault? Let's blame AF - maybe she's hovering, or maybe she's just purchased her tickets for her next visit to Lincoln? I swear she practices voodoo - and at this moment she has a Lori doll and a pile of pins in hand.

Burger - good in moderation. Peanut butter - good in moderation. Fries, cookie, candy - bad in excess. Burger and pb before/while cooking the real dinner - not good. Chocolate - good for your brain, good for your heart, not so good for your hips/butt/belly/thighs. Co-workers bringing stuff around - well meaning, but bad for you.

You know you're going to make up your mind to stop this binge - you have to pick the time. If you're getting this frustrated with yourself, sounds like it's time, and like you know it is. I don't like throwing fresh healthy food away after I've let it go bad, and I'm sure you don't either - it's too expensive, and you work too hard to throw money down the disposal.

Remember all the hard work you're doing at Jazz-clazz. Don't sabotage it and don't let anyone else.

BTW - I thought about a healthy salad for lunch with fat-free lemon yogurt for dessert, but I didn't really want either one. So I had a cheeseburger - a real one, not a BK or McD type. It was outstanding. But that's it for the week, guilt-free, period. Chicken and fish on the horizon through Saturday.

Donna

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 1:56pm
I don't have strength to send, but I will send HUGS! (I need the strength for me...the eating has been out of control here too.) Stress can be a big sabatour and it just might not be the "right" time for you to "diet". It will happen...sometimes when you don't stress about it and think about food too much. It just happens without realizing it. Try to relax about food right now. Guilt is a big enemy, so banish it from your thoughts. Everyday day is a new day...so is every meal. Make the best decisions healthwise that you can for now.

Remember, if you deny yourself something you really want, it can set you up for a binge. So make the "treats" part of your meal plan...just limit to one a day. It can work and you may just feel less stress and guilty.

So here come the hugs...they can be as satisfying as food and sometimes a whole lot better. Put a smile on too...it will help you feel better. I just did it and it worked!! You are not alone!!!

From one who really understands what you are going through...

Grace

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 2:18pm
Yet another Phyllis post that is printed out and on my clipboard. Things are spinning out of control, especially the eating right before bed. It's an old habit that I can't seem to break myself of. I have issues with going to bed hungry and it has nothing to do with my parents.

Anyway, thanks for the advice and support my soul-sister. Just when you think you're really on your own, you're not.

Lori

Lori

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 2:20pm
If only I could limit it to once a week! Yeah, I'm ready to get it all under control, but some of these things refuse to hold still long enough for me to get a handle on them...LoL. Thanks for your encouragement.

Lori

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 2:21pm
Thanks Grace. Maybe you're right. Maybe I need to step back and minute and figure out where I'm going wrong. All I can see right now are the negatives. I need to list out the positives and begin again.

Lori

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 3:33pm
HAVE BEEN THERE!!!!!!

Eric and I were going through chips and junk like there is not tomorrow. Luckily a Prevention Cookbook arrived in the mail (how do those just arrive in the mail!!!) on low carb cooking but not leaving out fruits and veggies..just some common sense stuff. I made one step--didn't buy one bag of chips at the store this week, virtually UN Heard of in our house LOL...and I'm doing to my last bit of M&Ms.

Things that help me and I'm totally out of is V8 low sodium. Can you have a can or two of that before lunch, or before you leave? Something emotionally is happening too, I find comfort in food binges---anything like that going on?

FOOD is too good of a friend to me :(

Deb

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 3:52pm
Thanks Deb. I've been so stressed out lately with my parents splitting up and my dad's girlfriend and her daughter and it's a mess. Now I'm trying to get back together with my son and see if we can salvage a relationship or not. I haven't been after the chips...pretzels yes. I actually found myself wishing DH would go away so I could eat my candy bar in private. Didn't want to risk him asking for a bite.

I've tried V8 with that very idea in mind. I know that it's really good for you, but 1) it gives heartburn like you wouldn't believe (too acidic) and 2) it makes my stomach feel like it's going to explode. I've really developed an aversion to V8. Yes, I've tried all the different flavors.

We've been getting those pre-made pudding and jell-o cups at WalMart. Cheap and way easier than making jell-o. Unfortunately, they are not sugar or fat free.

I think I'm just having a really off day. Tomorrow is DS birthday and I'm supposed to go over and see him...if I don't chicken out at the last minute. I'm the worst mother ever.

Lori

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 3:59pm
Hi Lori...what you're going through would do it. Life changes (good and bad) totally effect how I relate to food! Yesterday when everyone was there with the family I felt so depressed and had a good cry and dug into the M&Ms for comfort. I wanted to be there so much to share the moment and see my family.

I can't imagine what you're going through dealing with your parents' divorce.

Interesting how you mentioned you wanted to eat your candy bar in private. I do that too with the M&Ms. If Eric's here I'm too embarrassed to binge on chocolate like I do when I'm alone. What is with that?

Oh--stay away from the V8 if it gives you heartburn! Ouch. Does cheese help you? I bought some string cheese that I've been having at 4pm which is my HUGE danger zone, cheese and some sliced turkey rolled up. I keep trying new things to keep me from binging on other not so good for me things.

KEEP POSTING.

YOU are not the worst mother ever....!

Deb

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Wed, 07-16-2003 - 4:31pm
Uh, Lori - you're not a horrible mother. Susan Smith is high horrible. You're not even on the scale!

I keep forgetting about your parents' situation. No stress there! And I didn't know your were trying to reach out to your son again. None there, either! Yikes. I'd be looking for a bathtub full of Dove Dark to get me through.

I hope he'll be smart and give the two of you a chance, before any more times passes festering resentment and anger.

Donna

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