Feeling very insane
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| Fri, 08-29-2003 - 8:25am |
I'm not sleeping well and I'm sure the blues are being caused by hormones. I talked to the Dr about this. It seems that the time frame right before Flo should arrive and the time that she should be here but doesn't arrive makes me feel this way every month. Her baggage arrives but she doesn't. It's worse than PMS and certainly lasts longer. I've tried going back to yoga but I can't concentrate.
Stress levels within myself are skyrocketing and I know this is not helping the BP situation. I'm really trying to find the positive but when your mind seems to be going crazy it's hard. In a moment of lunacy last night looking for something I had just had I reached behind my knife block and sliced my finger on a knife that was improperly put away. Things are still up in the air about FIL. No one is getting very good information from the Dr as to what his prognosis is or what exactly is the problem. The nurses have provided as much information as they can as to his condition but the dr won't spare a few minutes to talk to my SIL who is bearing the brunt of all this. We've had the situation capped off by a Social worker who came in and accused the family of elder abuse claiming that my FIL had been abused with cigarette burns. Fortunately that situation was cooled rather quickly. I was sure DH was going to go up there and rip someone's head off.
I need to find myself some sanity-anyone have any to spare?
My mind is in a whirlwind and I need to calm down but just can't seem to find any normal brain cells to work with at the moment.
I'm doing a lot of whining this week and I apologize but if I can't talk to you guys there's not a lot of other people who could possibly understand.
Susan

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Use the time you'd normally do things for them and do something nice for yourself. Try to get out of the house and walk or windowshop at a nearby mall or Target or anything that gets you away from where you'd feel pressured to work. If you have a friend or relative to go with you, all the better.
I understand about the feeling when Aunt Flo is supposed to arrive and doesn't. It looks as though this month will be the first time that she's skipped my house. Can't say that I'm happy about that. I don't want to have to deal with HRT issues. Anyway, these last couple of weeks I've had more cravings, felt less motivated, and had more trouble focusing in general. Finally, I just had to tell myself, this is like any other physiological condition, it's valid, and it will pass.
Be kind to yourself and take care.
Hugs,
Rhonda
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Man what a turnaround! I have to tell you it really worked. It took 2 or 3 weeks for the reality of it all to sink in and then I came home to a nice dinner in a clean kitchen. I still have to do all the errands, but there's a stronger understanding in the house now. Sometimes I have to revert to the rebellion, but not for long.
Your poor family! Isn't it bad enough that FIL is the way he is without getting all those false accusations? I'm afraid I have little tolerance for social workers as a rule. I'm sure they mean well and are just trying to do the right thing. But a lot of the social workers I've known are real drama-mamas with nothing better to do than stir up hate and discontent.
I'm hoping things smooth out for you soon. Hang in there and take care. E-mail me if you like.
Hugs
Lori
Lori
Cussette
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I mentioned in chat how I have spoiled my family. Funny thing is they do not see it that way. I would love to go on strike but I just can not. I am nerotic with trying to keep the place clean because I lived with slobs growing up and I can not do that to myself. I drive myself crazy. Try to breathe, have a family meeting, and do not yell. Discuss what everyone wants and how they plan of helping out. That includes hubby too. Hang in there you are by no means alone in this.
Deb
Debbie
Hugs,
Anna
Girl, bless your heart. I am not going to patronize you. I've been there (and it's when TOM is coming on). Crying seemed like a way of life there for a while. I had a lot to be happy about, but still ..
You are talking to your doctor. You are aware "this, too, shall pass", but it's not quick or soon enough.
Besides crying the uglies out and cloistering myself off, I prayed 'cause I couldn't control, prevent, change grown people. I am only one person, and I can't save (or Change) the whole work.
Notice when this happens we beat up on ourselves more?? Don't know why, either.
I will think of you today. Keep our shoulder and cry on them often. We know (sigh) we know.
Cee~
CeeCee
I too am sending you a great big hug. Whenever I am experiencing hormonal difficulties things undone or messy around the house is what sends me over the edge. I get BOTHERED by EVERYTHING and don't have a lot of control over the feelings. It's pure torture for me and the family. I'm really feeling for you because I know how miserable you must be feeling.
As far as the kids go if I remember correctly they are all adults and perfectly able to run their own errands, but their own stuff, and pick up after themselves but they will not do it as long as you keep saying yes and they feel it's perfectly acceptable to expect it from you. My DH and I have always been parents who "do" for their kids and during the past year we found ourselves thinking we are more busy now than we were when they were growing up because we have taken on caring for their loved ones too. Sometimes it's such a simple thing but the kids had become dependent on us to take care of things. About 6 months ago we started stepping back and boy did the kids notice. I just told them I realize I won't always be here to do take care of them forever and they need to start learning how to do things for themselves. It's taken quite a bit of conscious behavior but it seems to be working. Oh, don't get me wrong I still help my kids out but now I pick and choose what I do and I'm a lot happier. Susan, I love my children with all my heart but now that they are adults I am so pleased they do not live under my roof. I think we all appreciate each other a lot more this way. The hormonal issues are much easier to deal with without the kids living in the house too. Is there any hope they will move out and on with their lives?
Hope things smooth out for you......Margie
You Were Born An Original... Don't Die A Copy
Rhonda
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What did your DR say about the hormonal issues?Any good advice?
I'm so sorry for all you have going on.Wish I could do something to help.Come to VA for a weekend and we'll pretend we're just 2 crazy girls looking for an island and a couple of cabana boys.
And it's not whining!!!!It's board therapy.Love ya, Susan!!!!
Miss P
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