Feeling very insane

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Feeling very insane
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Fri, 08-29-2003 - 8:25am
I hesitate to write this but I really need to get this out. I'm feeling so blue, overwhelmed and out of control. I can't get back into any routine around here. I'm angry at the amount of apathy in this house for keeping things at least straightened up around here. I don't want to come in after work and find lunch still on the kitchen counter. I don't want to be expected to pick things up from the drug store when you have access to what was MY car and you don't go to work until 12. I can't keep my own life in order I don't want to be expected to keep everyone elses in order too. Talk to them and tell them-I have. I shouldn't have to.

I'm not sleeping well and I'm sure the blues are being caused by hormones. I talked to the Dr about this. It seems that the time frame right before Flo should arrive and the time that she should be here but doesn't arrive makes me feel this way every month. Her baggage arrives but she doesn't. It's worse than PMS and certainly lasts longer. I've tried going back to yoga but I can't concentrate.

Stress levels within myself are skyrocketing and I know this is not helping the BP situation. I'm really trying to find the positive but when your mind seems to be going crazy it's hard. In a moment of lunacy last night looking for something I had just had I reached behind my knife block and sliced my finger on a knife that was improperly put away. Things are still up in the air about FIL. No one is getting very good information from the Dr as to what his prognosis is or what exactly is the problem. The nurses have provided as much information as they can as to his condition but the dr won't spare a few minutes to talk to my SIL who is bearing the brunt of all this. We've had the situation capped off by a Social worker who came in and accused the family of elder abuse claiming that my FIL had been abused with cigarette burns. Fortunately that situation was cooled rather quickly. I was sure DH was going to go up there and rip someone's head off.

I need to find myself some sanity-anyone have any to spare?

My mind is in a whirlwind and I need to calm down but just can't seem to find any normal brain cells to work with at the moment.

I'm doing a lot of whining this week and I apologize but if I can't talk to you guys there's not a lot of other people who could possibly understand.

Susan

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 08-29-2003 - 4:15pm
Rhonda,

I am fortunate to have a sister who is 5 years older than me who had a boy and girl approximately 5 years older than my children. She learns the lessons and passes the good information on to me.

Margie :)

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Registered: 02-27-2001
Sat, 08-30-2003 - 5:30pm
Susan, I realize that I am responding to this quite late but better late than never, right?

This happened at times when the kids were home here, too. It absolutely drove me crazy! And the strange part is that they all knew that it drove me crazy and wouldn't do a thing about it until I 'ranted and raved' at them! And when my hormones surged, so did my temper, obviously. I honestly don't know if it ever gets better. When grown kids come home, they seem to revert back to messy rooms and stuff everywhere. At least my DS does. DD seems to be doing better at keeping things at a minimum mess when she and her hubby come home.

As for my hubby....well, it depends on a lot of things. Basically, he's a really neat guy as far as picking up his clothes and putting things into the hamper. But he's pretty messy in the kitchen. And he needs a 'urging' every once in a while to help out there. When I say something, he looks at me with a perfectly blank and innocent look and says, "I'm perfectly willing to help. Just let me know when you want it and what you want done". As if it isn't obvious? When dishes are falling off the counter????

So....hang in there. It is a universal problem. Adam and Eve probably had that problem, too. Adam probably threw his fig leaf on the ground instead of out of the garden.

As far as those hormones....those nasty little buggers just won't behave for any of us anymore. I am losing hope. But at least we have each other. Hugs to you.

Nancy

Nancy

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