Just completely frustrated...

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Just completely frustrated...
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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 7:42pm
discouraged and feeling a little blue. I went to see my friendly GP this evening. Certainly no good news there. He has changed my medication yet again because a. it's not working b. it's depleting my salt level. So I'm back to the original drug except with more mg and a new medication of something called Toprol-XL. Of course I was listening while he was explaining but still not quite sure I listened hard enough. So I need to do a little research. We got into a bit of a discussion about the headaches I've been experiencing and I now get to go for an MRI of my brain and sinuses. Wonder if they'll find anything new and exciting in there? And I got home just in time to hear that DH had chest pains this morning....he has himself completely worked up about our son's exploits this weekend and how somehow it relates back to him as a bad father. Usually he's the one screaming and yelling and me thinking I'm the bad parent but I'm the furious one and my parenting skills had nothing to do with his stupidity. So enough said on this subject. I going to go do some research on my drug of the week and hoping that this one will work without all the great side effects to go with it.

I'm really sorry to be on such a negative side of life. I'm reading so many upbeat posts and everyone trying to focus on good things but I'm just really not feeling it at the moment. I'm really trying to do the right things but things just don't seem to be clicking at the moment.

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 7:51pm
Certainly sounds like a bad day to me. So sorry…sending a warm hug and hoping things will be brighter tomorrow.

Debra:^)

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 8:22pm
First of all never apologize for a negative post.You're always there for any of us who are having rough times.I'm so sorry you're having all this trouble with medications. This has to leave you feeling worn out.I hope this one works for you.Really sory to hear of Dhs chest pains. What a thing to come home to!I hope you guys get a break soon. You all have had way too much going on.Sending you big hugs.Remember I'm here if you need anything.

Miss P




 

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 8:42pm

Do not apologize for your post.

Nancy

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 9:56pm
Susan, I hope that you are able to find some relief from your new medication. Medicine is really just trial and error and finding the right mix. I hope that your dh feels better soon. Raising kids is not an easy job, "bigger kids can mean bigger problems", hopefully your ds has learned something. I have worked with kids for 16 years and have seen the good, bad and the ugly and sometimes things just happen. I have also seen some of the most troubled young adults turn their lives totally around for the good!

Hugs

Sharon

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Tue, 10-14-2003 - 6:59am
I'm so sorry to hear about your health, Susan. I hope your medication can be adjusted to help you. I can't imagine how frustrating this must be to you or how bad you feel. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Hope things get better for you, dh, and ds. I think your kids are just great and your ds will learn from this - he sounds like such a good guy! Your post about your shopping trip with your dd just warmed my heart! Such sweet kids you have.

Hope you feel better soon,

Kat

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Tue, 10-14-2003 - 8:06am
I echo what everyone else has said, and am sending cyber-hugs your way.




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Tue, 10-14-2003 - 8:13am
Susan:

I wish I could just give you a big fat hug. I'm sorry to hear you have nothing great to report from the doctor. Hope your MRI goes well.

Your parenting style, good or bad, has nothing to do with how your son behaves. He makes his own decisions and he'll have to learn to deal with that. It doesn't matter what you or DH do, your son will just turn out how he turns out. He may blame you for it, but it's not your fault.

We all have times when we feel negative. You certainly have reason for it these days. Sometimes it's hard to know what is the right thing to do. Just keep plugging along. We're here for you. We're all in this together.

Lori

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Tue, 10-14-2003 - 8:19am
Susan - Hugs coming your way. Sometimes that big wheel takes time to turn, but it does, and it will. Take care of yourself, and make sure DH takes care of himself. I don't mean to sound cold, but maybe this latest challenge your DS has set himself up for is something he needs to face up to on his own, as best he can, to learn and grow from; maybe seeing his parents hurting will snap him out of it.

I'll be thinking of you as your tests continue and hoping for the best for you, DH and DS.

Donna

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Tue, 10-14-2003 - 8:20am
Thank you all for your kind words. As always you bring a smile to my face and always make me feel better.

You're all the very best!

Susan