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| Wed, 10-22-2003 - 12:52am |
My parents e-mailed and said they wouldn't be visiting over Thanksgiving (or alternate days of Allison's birthday or Christmas) like they'd hoped. They've managed to book/pay for an upcoming cruise, they're going to Mexico for 4 days in December, and my dad took a weeklong birding trip to Peru a few weeks ago, but the reason they give for not visiting is "Money and time are tight." It's a long story that started when they moved 4+ years ago, and while I turned my anger and sorrow about various issues regarding my parents over to the Lord (took two years), I didn't fall off a turnip truck yesterday, yanno? I get tired of thinly veiled talk about what they can't do when it's really because they'd much rather do something else. I'm glad we've got my loving MIL who wants to be a part of our lives. ...Things at The Cus's job aren't going well either - threats of layoffs, cutbacks, he's putting in more time, and now he finds out that they're having a wage freeze for the next year for most employees, including him. ...The only time I see my friends is when we pass each other in church or attend some study together. ...My spiritual life is flagging too, and perhaps a lot of this would just seem nominal had I been doing my quiet time, though right now I read the Truth and it just passes through my ears - I've definitely been Martha lately. ...I can't run as much as during the summer due to shorter days, and with DH getting home later, I'm down to 2 days. I can't seem to make adequate time for working out, either. When I work out, other projects get sidelined; when I do those projects, working out gets sidelined. I haven't been playing preschool with Allison lately, either. ...The new car is taking forever to get here, and while it's *supposed* to be in the US, Subaru can't say for certain. ...Word from one of Dan's aunts is that she has breast cancer - too early in the diagnosis to know it's spread or anything. ...I'm not all that excited about Halloween, though autumn and Halloween tend to bring out the kid in me. ...All I have to look forward to is cleaning house, paying bills, and studying 3 textbooks to maintain my CPA status before December 31st - like I'm *really* looking forward to fitting that in, and Allison won't be happy about me having my nose in a book rather than doting on her. Well, I do have a birthday for a Little Bit coming up, but even planning that seems like a task rather than something I'm looking forward to (aaack - mommy guilt!).
I'm in a rut, and I feel like I need a break, though if I had a break, it'd be just the same ol' same ol' when it was over. Not really looking for advice or suggestions, just need to unload. Tag - y'all are it ;^)! This is certainly not the worst life can be, and I'm thankful for what is *right* in my life. I'm know this is all temporary, I'm not obsessed or anything, no longer having those disturbing dreams so they're unrelated to anything (amazing what a prayer in faith will do!), not depressed, and I don't see this as a lingering thing. I just wish there was a springboard just around the corner that I could bounce off of to be more positive and forward-looking right now.
Cantankerous Cussette

No advice here Linda.
Live With Passion!
Phyllis
Patty
Miss P
No need to apologize. We all have times when we feel a little needier and more sensitive, and it's good to know we can share that with others who understand and care.
I feel bad that I didn't get to Al's site sooner. I've been a stay at home Mom off-and-on throughout the years, but either way, my children have been my life, and it's hard when other people don't respond the same way. I was thinking yesterday about how a former board member used to refer to her son as "the golden child," and I was thinking, we ALL think our own children are golden. It's just human nature. You really have done an outstanding job on the web site, and she will definitely be grateful to have such a wonderful pictorial and written record of her life as she gets old enough to fully appreciate it.
~~Rhonda~~
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So what if you only get 2 runs in a week? I'm pretty sure you get plenty of exercise with all the things you do for others. Please do take some time for yourself. Ali will get over you having your nose in a book for a while. You're not neglecting her by maintaining your professional status, you're helping to insure her future and role-modeling responsible behavior.
There is never a need for apologies for venting here. Your parents sound like they give you cause for sadness and anger. I sense that maybe you're afraid you'll make Ali feel like they make you feel. I don't think you'll let that happen. No guilt is needed. You are a great Mom and I'm sure Ali and the Cus know that. Things will work out for the best as you know. Take it one day at a time.
Hugs,
Lori
Lori
No solutions here, just hopes that you'll be yourself soon and that everything works out.
Donna
Sorry!
Linda,
When I read your post I realized that it could have a disclaimer that reads "the names have been changed to protect the innocent" and it could pretty much be the story of many of us on the board.
You Were Born An Original... Don't Die A Copy
About your folks not having the "money" to visit. I feel your anger and understand completely. My mom babysits for my middle sister and I feel upset because I believe my sister takes advantage. My folks never come to see my kids race, but they make all of my nephews soccer games. Does it upset me, you bet. Do they love her kids more then mine, probley not, but it still hurts. I wish I could give you something to help but I can't. I have a great in-laws too. Who idolize my kids 100% and they are always here for them and Bill and I. I think they have gone to about 90% of the races, and they travel out of town and are so proud of my kids. They spoil them to death!
Now about your beautiful daughter, she is just that! The day I saw/read your post I logged onto your site right away. I completely enjoyed looking at her and you have everyright to be proud of her. I just did not have time to tell you this, and I am truely sorry. I did not mean to offend you. I should have let you know this, I understand when we want and need to hear others thoughts.
Well time for Katie to get home and together we need to start our homework. Hang in there I am sure things will get better and about hubby's job.... I am thinking about you there and understand you worries. We are self employed and when things slow down we panic. I hope everything works out the way you need and want. Again I am so sorry. Feel better!
(((HUGS)))
Deb
Debbie
I understand your feelings completely.
"Make Choices that bring you joy" cl-Patty