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| Sun, 03-16-2008 - 8:06pm |
A while ago I drove to Tim's office from the hospital and told him I want a divorce. I can't live like this anymore. It is destroying me emotionally. Sorry to be such a downer.

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Thank-you all so much for your friendship and support. I don't know what I'd do without you. I was up tll about 3 AM scrubbing floors, doing laundry, and things like that. With all the mixed emotions I'm having, I still felt the need to "get my house in order", which is a good thing. Rob was up and talked to me a lot too. I can't find words to say how much I'm going to miss him, but I'll survive. I am so thrilled my sister, niece, and 2 little great nieces will be here from MD tonight!! What a lifeline at this time. Also, I will see Erin, Joe, and Jackson Friday evening and Saturday, so that's a real boost.
Tim called this morning to ask if he could come by to get some things, and I said yes. He stayed at a hotel last night. It took me a while to get to sleep, but I slept well with no covers being hogged, no snoring, and no fan blasting over him and onto me. I'm trying to look at the bright side. :-) When he came by, things were very calm and polite. I had done a lot of laundry last night, so all his clothes are clean except the drycleaning and laundry stuff. He took what he could fit in his car and asked if he could get the rest tomorrow. I said yes. He went in and said good-bye to the "unconscious" Rob. I think Rob is pretty calm about it this time since he's leaving soon and we had 3 dress rehearsals last year. I know those changed me and my attitude about it. I've done my grieving, so at least that part is mostly over. We hugged good-bye and I wished him the best of luck. He did the same to me. He looked a tiny bit watery eyed, but I was calm. I told him now he will have what he wants and he looked like he didn't necessarily agree, but I know better.
I was doing really well this morning until I read all your wonderful posts and then I broke down, not in sadness, but in gratitude. I appreciate the emails, e-cards, and calls. I was on the phone with family a lot last night and haven't had the emotional strength to talk much more. I can't tell you how much your being there means to me. I will bounce back and be there more for all of you too, I hope before long. I have to focus on getting my finances straight, spending as much quality time with Rob as possible, and being there for the rest of the family. Tim did say he'd see Rob again before he leaves and he'll be there for his graduation. We will meet sometime on Friday to go over the bills. I don't know if he noticed or not, but I've already taken off my wedding ring and put my engagement ring on my right hand as a pledge to myself that I will not be deluded into staying in the toxic relationship any longer. There are no fairytale endings here.
So, here's a beautiful shot of the beach this morning on this first day of the rest of my life. And, I'm going to post the link to a YouTube video of one of the songs that was played when I was baptized and that summarizes the attitude I'm going to try to have about this whole life
~~Rhonda~~
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Rhonda,
Karen
Rhonda.
You are anything BUT a downer.
I am so sad to read this. I know that this is not what you wanted to happen.
Keeping you (and Rob & Tim) in my prayers.
Much love, Susan
Rhonda,
Deb/MN
Rhonda, I am going to echo what everyone else has said and tell you that you are not a downer. I am so sorry to hear this since you invested so much time and effort to make things work. However, you cannot go on living like you are and being emotionally drained when you need support with everything you are going through. No wonder you have not been able to sleep!
Know we are here for you and call me anytime if you want to talk.
Prayers and hugs...
Grace
PS...just read your response! You are right...here's to a great first day of the rest of your life. You are so smart to get all your ducks in a row with finances and all. You are one brave lady!!
Hugs again...
Be like a postage stamp.
Be like a postage stamp. Stick to it until you get there.
Bob Proctor
Rhonda,
I wish I lived closer so I can give you a hug.
The Journey Is Just As Good As The Destination - A Dear Friend
Rhonda,
I am so sorry to hear the news.
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