And then a bad day...
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| Wed, 05-26-2004 - 9:23am |
After having four really good days, I stumble across a bad day and my reaction is the same: eat. In one day, I have my three year old ask me if I'm having a baby because "your tummy is big" and then I have to go to a pool-party (already it's in the upper 80s and low 90s here and it's only May) where I am the heaviest woman there - or at least that's how it feels. Does anyone else ever feel like they are the only one who's not in shape? I heard on the news that right now 60% of Americans are overweight but I feel like none of them live nearby. (Yes, sometimes misery loves company...)
Finally, if those two events weren't enough, I then have to find something to wear to my brother-in-law's upcoming wedding. "Show off you're best parts" the experts say but what happens when you've lost your best parts? Literally, I feel like I don't have a best part any longer. It was so painful trying dress after dress. The sales clerk bravely bringing the next one, saying "I'm sure this will look nice" only to find it doesn't go over my hips or I look like a piece of chintz furniture...And who needs to see what you like from behind? Really, I could do without that...Soooo depressing....I finally bought a dress - black of course - but I feel like I'm at the point where black doesn't even help.
I sound so pitiful. I'm sorry. I don't mean to but right now I feel like I'm so far away from my former self that I'll never get there again (and so I turn to the thing that has helped me to get to this position - food, and the cycle starts again. Now I'm thinking, "well June is only a couple days away. Maybe I'll start my diet on June 1st".)
Venting helps...
Thanks for listening
peg
PS: - cl vi_islandgirl: my friend said you can get free samples of True Lemon at www.truelemon.com. As I said, I think it's a good substitution for Crystal light because it's just powdered lemon without artifical sweeteners but it still has 0 calories and 0 carbs. Also, I don't know if you have any of them around you but you can buy Go Lean Cruch at Traders Joe's much cheaper then in regular grocery stores.

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Awww...Peg, I want to rush over and give you a big hug ~ because YES, I've felt all those things you're feeling too.
Thay with it Peg, you are doing great!!! 4days of healthy living and eating is wonderful. Don't be discouraged it definately gets easier. I promise.
KIM
I'll throw some prayers in there too... they help!
~Pam
Just so you know I am usually the heaviest in the crowd so I know exactly how you feel. but get in that pool, go to the wedding and have a great time. Celebrate the good things in your life - like have parties to go to. You are surounded by people that love and accept you for you and not your size.
Have a great day. And remember every day is a great day to start eating healthy.
Robyn
You are on the right track and with focus and hard work that track will take you to anywhere. Keep your chin up. You are doing something about it and that is what you have to do. Small baby steps. Take care!
Isn't this board just *SUPER* and full of *SUPPORT*? The ladies have ALL given your great advice, and I know that it's coming from experience. Just yesterday I went swimming, with a few others, and usually I go alone, so I too went through- I felt like I was the biggest there- heck my boobs seemed to be just floating, lol- I was SO embarrassed! BUT I kept telling myself, you know 'they' (ppl I was with) are probably not even noticing them (boobs)!! I got over it, and did my best at enjoying my time there! (I also did the inconspicuous exercise of treading!)
We all have off days, the trick is to see it,
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Linda
Peg, what a sucky day.
Okay. I admit I was laughing when I read this.
Why? Because. This morning, I see a nice red zit on my nose. Bleah. Then since I'm going to Hawaii, I AM trying to lose weight to fit into this really cute bathing suit, and since I live in LA, can they MAKE a larger suit? Noooooo..... Talk about living where all the beautiful ppl are. At LEAST, I admit this is mean, in Hawaii, there are so many Hawaiian, and Samoan women, I look tiny compared to them (makes me feel good y'know).
I also have a wedding to go to when I'm there. My cousin's friend. I'm my cousin's date. lol. She's a stick btw. A size 4. So, I'm trying to find something cute, dressy, but something I wont' sweat like a pig in. Pants are out, cuz it'll be too hot for me. So I'm looking for a nice skirt. I bought one, it'll fit if I don't have to sit, eat, or breathe. So, I need to lose weight.
And since I'm not feeling good about myself since I haven't kept up to my workout schedule, guess what's starting next week. Yup, you guessed it. AF. So, I'm hoping I'm just bloated and not fat.
My point. I hear ya loud and clear. And you GOT company in me....lol.
Hugs. I know how those days can just SUCK!
~Cher
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