Did I tell you what happenend?

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Did I tell you what happenend?
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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 1:39pm

Well, I had this pair of jeans that I loved. They were my Polo jeans. NEver had an expensive pair like that in a LONG time, but I bought them cuz I had dropped a size, and they were even one size smaller (must've been the way they fit).


Well, they were the thin type of jeans, and I noticed at the pocket edges, the material was wearing thin.


Well, lo and behold, I bend over one day, and my pants ripped. And with the extra weight I've gained, it was just pushing to it's limit, like all my pants. It didn't rip in the back. The strange thing, it ripped parallel to my zipper. And well, with every movement of me bending over, i'd hear it rip a bit more. I had to literally go buy a pair of pants and put them on. By the time I got the new ones on, the old ones had a rip 3" long.


Ladies. I am so depressed about my weight. I think it's causing me to NOT do a thing about it. And tigerlilly, this is exactly why I need something fast, FIRST, before diong it the good way. My pants don't fit. AT ALL! They are pulling apart at the seams in the legs. This will prove how good my pants are built. So far, the Old Navy ones are actually holding up. My polo ones ripped. And another pair of are pulling apart at the seams.


I am so down about all this and I realized that is why I'm not exercising, not doing anything, why I dno't care about what I'm eating. NOTHING fits. not my shirts, not my pants. nothing. i literally cannot eat, cuz my pants are so tight. if i eat, it's tighter, which could be a good thing. i have to sit for my job and i can feel my "rolls". gross. i think the fat between my tummy and chest are becoming a second layer of boobage. gross. thank god it's winter. i am literally hiding under my clothes.


someone just shoot me and put me out of my misery. my pants rip (this was around xmas), my clothes are literally leaving me scarred (on my waist, tummy, thighs), cuz it's so tight. things are falling apart, cuz the seams are being pulled on so much. i literally am sitting here with my buttons undone. cuz i can't breath. i can't even cross my legs my pants are so friggen tight.


yeah. just shoot me. put me out of my misery.


okay, that was my vent for today.







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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 2:01pm

You do what ever works for you Cher! Once you get your calories back under control those pants will be fitting more comfortably and then you can step it up from there. Baby steps work and if trying Special K diet will jump start you a little give it a try. Just be healthy and keep moving/exercising as much as you can. That help boost those feel good indorfins too.


I totally understand being bumbed and just not giving a sh!t. Feel like I'm kind of in that frame of mind myself. Just try to force yourself to something each day that's good for you will hopefully start getting your mood in a more postive feel. Least that's what I'm trying to do.



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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 2:18pm

I think the other thing that is adding to this, is that I live in SoCal, and today was the first day in over a week that the sun was out. I swear I'm getting S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder). We've had rain for 15 days straight. That's a record of some sort here. It's downright depressing.


Yup, I'm sure that's adding to it. I'm buying a salad for lunch. not like i can eat much anyways, my pants are so friggen tight. lol.







my pet!

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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 3:17pm

I hadn't thought of that. S.A.D. I'm wondiering if the could be part of my problem as well. I noticed yesterday morning that it was darker out when I went to work and was hoping that meant it would be lighter out when I went home at 5:00.


Do you think that type of mood disorder progresses? Like starts at the daylight savings time and gets gradually worse? Have to read up on it I guess.

Gretchen


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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 3:52pm

Cher, we are NOT going to take you out back and shoot you.

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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 4:19pm

Poor Cher, I know just how you feel. When I was about 19 (SEVERAL years ago) I was running out to the street to get in the car with a guy to go on a date. 1/2 way across my yard I dropped something,,, I swooped down real quick to pick it up and when I did the whole front (parallel to the buttons) of my button down Guess jeans EXPLODED! My gut was hanging out and the guy had to wait while I went back in and put on my fat jeans! It doesn't get much worse than that!

Give yourself that quick kick start and you'll be felling much better!
Elle

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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 4:43pm

it could be. i know i get sluggish with the time change, and i'm more moody and irritable. and yet, i love the dark. hmm...


let me know if you find anything.







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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 4:51pm

You're not alone, Cher. I have had to buy clothes in a larger size and thought I would just have to accept that as part of aging. It was so depressing to tell my mom what size I wear when she was asking about it for Christmas gifts.

But I decided I am not going to accept the rising size thing. I have heard women say that they are in the best shape ever and they're way older than we are.

I know how hard it is, and I know what it's like to get disgusted with myself, my eating, my weight. But we can do it. It will take longer than we'd like, and it will take dedication, but we'll be better for it.

As for the lack of sun, those of us in MI are missing the sun too. We have had snowy (freezing drizzly, rainy), grey and dark days. We're out of luck until June I think. I like candles and fireplaces, but I guess it's too warm in SO Cal for that.

I had this neighbor once in the loft where I lived who collected lamps. He had about 40 of them. I used to go upstairs to chat once in a while, and he'd show me his latest additions. Some were nice, most were funky, some were really ugly. But it was fun.

I don't know that I would start collecting lamps, but they do suggest adding artificial light to combat SAD.

Hang in there
Lor

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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 4:57pm

It's against the policy? Darn! Oh well, I guess then, I will stretch out my hand to be helped up.


Thanks Miranda. (btw. i think the SUN helped)







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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 5:47pm
Okay, you win Elle. I'm grateful that didn't happen. I didn't even realize mine had ripped, I just didn't understand why all of a sudden my pants felt "loose". lol. Hugs to your horrible experience.







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Tue, 01-11-2005 - 5:51pm

Collect lamps huh? I remmeber with my xh, he was so surprised we had fireplaces here in CA. Cuz he was from HI, where they don't have any. He was soooo in love with ours at our townhome. lol. I haven't lit a fire since I was married. =(


Well, I feel for you. No sun until June? See, we're not used to this 15 days, so although it may sound wimpy, for us, it's not. lol.


Thanks. I thought by not upping my size, I'd be more apt to lose, since it was so tight, but instead it just depresses me. I guess it's time for me to go up and be happy somewhat.







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