Christmas Party Decision........outcome
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| Wed, 11-29-2006 - 5:05pm |
I just wanted to tell everyone.....I'll be going to that darn party after all. I got a dress, it's purdy. I got a wrap, it's purdy. I hate how my body looks, but y'know what? I don't care. Sorta. lol. Basically, I decided to go to a shrink about me degrading myself and how I was feeling, and after the accident, yikes. I was a total nut case. I am still stressed, unhappy with myself, but trying to be less hard on myself.
I'm going to go, try not to think about anything or how I look, and just well, TRY to enjoy myself. lol. I hate parties like this, so this isn't making it any easier.
I've healed physically pretty well. Not 100%, but getting there. Mentally, the fact that school is ending, doesn't help the stress levels, and neither does the chiro admins pushing for me to come in more, more more. seriously, they asked WHY I couldn't make X day. They wanted a SPECIFIC reason. WTF. it's really none of their business. THEY are beginning to stress me out and take a toll on me. Seriously. Talk about mental breakdown due to being pressured to go to the chiro. Nuts.
Anyhow. Thanks again, for all that helped, or at least tried to talk some sense into me. I haven't lost any weight, but haven't gained either. I have water pills (to help get rid of water, for other thigns), and I'm going to take those, just to not feel so bloated. No worries, I'm not going overboard, just the prescribed amount (one a day, don't want to get dehydrated).
I'm still kinda dreading it, but oh well. I feel like this anytime I have to meet new people. lol or at least interact with a lot of ppl.

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Glad hear you are going, you go have fun and enjoy yourself. Your Dh will love it.
Rainey
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Hey everyone. Thanks for all the support of my psychosis. lol. The party was good. Not overly exciting, but still good. The other woman was there, and I was soooo grateful. She makes it much "safer" for me. I dont' feel so weird about it. DH said he had fun, loved my dress and was happy for me to meet some ppl. Scarily, everyone said they've heard a lot about me. I think DH talks too much about me. lol. I forgot to get a photo of the dress :( however, our friends got a photo of us together so, i'll post that later, or at least something.
Again. thanks for surving another one of my weight psychosis. lol.
Glad you had a good time Cher!! Sometimes the apprehension can be so much worse than the actual event, I'm sure you looked wonderful!!
(Guess I didn't realize it was this weekend too!) Glad to hear dh was happy you went too, as for him talking about you- good! He's proud of you....and apparently talks to his co-workers about it. Now....onto the next pary for you girl! LOL~
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