Not even sure how or where to start....

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Not even sure how or where to start....
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Tue, 02-06-2007 - 12:12am

Hello everyone. This is my first time posting to this board and not really sure where to start.....

I am a 31 year old mother of 2. My son is 4 and my daughter is 16 months. I have been living common-law with my husband for 10 years. I was thin, curvy and a healthy eater when I met him. Then came the regular meals of take out food everyday, sometimes twice a day. I was 125 - 130 lbs then. I am currently 185 lbs. I am only 5'5" tall.

I am at my wits end - any glimpse I get walking by a mirror, seeing my reflection, it just makes me shake my head. No longer do I have my curvy hourglass figure; now I am an apple. I have never been an apple before and I feel so very unsexy.

I need to start eating better, but it actually scares me to do so. As a teenager I was so obsessed with food and had a full blown eating disorder. I was a bulimic annorexic. Most of the time I would not eat, then if I had to I would get rid of it within the hour. I am terrified that I will revert back to those urges. I know it has been so long since I have lived that way, but I know that it will always be a part of me even if it is stuffed way down low inside.

I figure that I will continue to eat what I want, when I want and just try to exercise everyday until my confidence in my own strength increases. I was thinking that I could be a member of this board to note accomplishments and maybe get some encouragement. No one in my life knows exactly how I feel. Yeah, they know that I am overweight and that I feel fat and hate it, but they have no idea about the depth of it. My husband really isn't any kind of help. He actually makes suggestions to fast food regularly.

Well now that I have seriously depressed everyone who read my post....is there anyone else on this board who have similar challenges?

Dayle

Dayle
SAHM Mommy to
Braeden(4) and Ciara(2)<

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 02-07-2007 - 5:30pm

Hi there,

Yes, those are the dvd's that I am using. The first disk is about 45 minuts long and includes the warm up, work out, routine and cool down. Her costumes really are very beautiful. The 45 minutes seemed to go by pretty fast if you're not interupted during it like I am - I get the occasional "mommy mommy!" while doing my workout. It's different and doesn't feel like "work" unlike when using a regular aerobic dvd.

Here's here direct website - not sure if there are any areas to see some of the video or not. http://www.goddessworkout.com/index.html

Dayle

Dayle
SAHM Mommy to
Braeden(4) and Ciara(2)<

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Wed, 02-07-2007 - 6:47pm
Thanks for the direct link....there's a lot going on over there ;-)

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Thu, 02-08-2007 - 12:03pm

Hi Dayle - I just wanted to Welcome you to the Board. Congrats on getting that Belly Dancing in 1st thing in the morning - what a GREAT way to get a workout in!


You will be sure to find lots of encouragement and advice from these ladies - they're AWESOME!



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Registered: 12-04-2003
Thu, 02-08-2007 - 12:42pm

Hey Dayle, that belly dancing sounds like a fun way to work out! I bet you will have great abs after doing that for a while!


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Registered: 01-17-2007
Thu, 02-08-2007 - 2:32pm

Hi there, Dayle!


I read your post and like the other ladies said... this board is so supportive!

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