sunday journal

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Registered: 03-11-2004
sunday journal
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Sun, 11-21-2004 - 12:07pm

if i feel better this afternoon, i really need to come up with some new choreography for hi/lo and i'd like to play DDR. we'll see how i feel.

food-

scrambled tofu, fake sausage, one quarter of a multigrain bagel with eb (treat!), coffee, oj

brussel sprouts

clementines

sweet potato "fries" (not deep fried) - i didn't eat sweet potato yesterday as planned

dried fruit and mixed nuts

dinner - that bulgher, lentil and kale dish that T was going to make yesterday... our neighbors invited us out to dinner last night for salvadorean food and i had a vegetarian plate of steamed yucca, v. refried beans, white rice, plaintains, etc. i only at a few tortilla chips, and had no alcohol, so i was good!! i also haven't eaten any dessert items since i started cleaning up my diet, and haven't missed it.

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Registered: 03-15-2004
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Sun, 11-21-2004 - 12:15pm

Ughghghghgh. Trying to have a positive attitude despite the fact that AF is here and I feel like poop. Even though I'd rather veg out on the couch with recovering DH (who is doing just fine, btw) I am going shopping today. I realized that I'm headed back to the midwest in a few weeks and I've got nothing to wear as Missouri is not a year-round-t-shirt state. Thankfully one of my friends is coming along with me to help keep me from getting in a sour mood. (This is the part where I do not berate myself for not wearing the same size I wore this time last year. This is the part where I remind myself that being in that size also meant that I was malnourished and was losing hair and fingernails. I am also reminding myself that my fingernails are now strong, my hair is growing back and I don't look sickly anymore. *deep breath* and repeat... Sol, are you proud of me? :)

No exercise today but I boxed for an hour by myself yesterday.

Breakfast: protein bar, ww bread, oatmeal

No idea about the rest of the day. Friend and I may bring home Thai food for hubby.

Have a great weekend guys!

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Registered: 11-15-2004
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Sun, 11-21-2004 - 1:05pm

I'm proud of you although you didn't ask me if I were.

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In reply to: cl_jenindc
Sun, 11-21-2004 - 5:52pm

Ah, thank you. :) My comment to Sol wasn't meant to exclude anyone else... I just usually think of her as the most level-headed positive body image role model that we have here.

Shopping wasn't as bad as I thought. I'm going to probably have to play dress up and make sure I want to keep everything I bought but all in all, it wasn't too traumatic.

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Registered: 11-15-2004
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Sun, 11-21-2004 - 6:16pm
well if you wanted a level headed person then you definitely didn't mean me! ;)
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Registered: 03-20-2003
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 8:37am
That's a good brag--being happy w/ being healthy and not w/ what's on the scale.





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Registered: 03-15-2004
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 2:41pm
I really did try to think of another way to phrase that but poop ultimately won. :) Glad it made you giggle.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 3:31pm
I'm very proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to make that kind of honest assessment of oneself and weigh what's best for you. Besides I've seen your 'after' and you're beautiful, trim and fit-looking. Isn't that much better, regardless of size?
Soleilune
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Registered: 03-15-2004
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 4:40pm

The first thing that popped into my mind is to reply "But you haven't seen my cookie dough thighs!" :)

I know that you're right. I'm am working very hard on accepting myself and trying not to be so critical. It's a journey, as you know. It's just something that requires a lot of self-talk and repetitive thinking... forcing out the bad thoughts and replacing them with good ones.

Btw, I asked for those "Losing It" books you mentioned for Christmas. :) I'm pretty sure I'll get them and I look forward to reading them.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: cl_jenindc
Mon, 11-22-2004 - 4:52pm
If it helps, I'm down to a size three & STILL have 'cookie dough' on my thighs. I hate to say it, but I think its a gender and age thing, not weight. Anyways, we can't look like the those smooth-skinned, airbrushed teens the mags try to pass of as grown women & still have a life. Right?
Soleilune
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Mon, 11-22-2004 - 4:54pm

hey while we're on this subject, did anyone see the Simpsons last night? Lisa started to get really self-concious about her "big butt". there's a funny scene where

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