One change a day...

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Registered: 03-26-2003
One change a day...
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Fri, 02-04-2005 - 10:39am

Ok, Jen and Jean and a few of the oldtimers who sometimes visit probably remember me and the on-going struggle with weight. Fat baby, fat toddler, fat kid, fat teen, fat lady...

I lost and was doing well and was on track in life. Family deaths and the depression that ensued, an injury, a job I hate (did I mention I got a promotion yesterday?), and so much chaos I make an international airport look like a zen garden means that I've gained again.

So, I'm all for admitting my mistakes and faults and learning from them. I've handled this wrong. Negative feelings = negative action.

Here is the challenge, yes I'm enlisting your help I cannot do it alone. I'm co-dependent too, how's that for messed up? I swear before the board gods and all present to make one positive change a day.

Today is day one, my positive change will be to NOT EAT ANY OF THE CANDY LAYING AROUND THE OFFICE. My strategy for achieving this is to take something else I love to eat instead--the new little mandarin orange single packs from dole:)

Anyone else?

~K~

~Kiervin~

Co-author of:  MONSTER'S INK HORROR ANTHOLOGY By Cyber-Pulp Press

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Sat, 02-05-2005 - 4:27pm

CONGRATS!!! I've been gone and didn't realize you were expecting!

I too was less than happy when I found out I was carrying my son. I battled major depression the entire pregnancy and feared that I wouldn't bond with him or love him like I did my daughter-who is just 19 months older. I finally realized it was just apprehension and post-partum issues from having my daughter. I absolutely adore my son, he is just the neatest kid. I've told him (he's nine now) he may have been unplanned but he was never unwanted :-) You will likely find yourself up and down throughout the pregnancy but there is nothing like that moment when they hand you your newly born child, even ones you didn't expect to be having. To this day I cannot remember that first moment I saw him without crying in happiness, more so even than that first moment with our daughter. You'll be fine, but remember you aren't alone. Many moms with unplanned pregnancies have the same worries and feelings, it doesn't make them wrong, just human.

~K~

~Kiervin~

Co-author of:  MONSTER'S INK HORROR ANTHOLOGY By Cyber-Pulp Press

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Registered: 03-20-2003
Sat, 02-05-2005 - 5:12pm

Yay that you resisted all the junk!






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