New here, hit a new low

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Registered: 06-02-2003
New here, hit a new low
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Wed, 10-12-2005 - 8:13pm

Well, my name is Tina and I'm 36. I'm 5 ft tall and weigh 220 lbs. I also have fibromyalgia which I know would be somewhat alleviated if I could just get some weight off. I'm a mom of 3 homeschooled children ages 8,6 and 5.

Last week I hit an all time low. I decided that I absolutely had to have something chocolate and ice cream. I remembered that in the freezer there were a couple ice cream bars. They were on the bottom of the freezer. Being short, I got on a stool to see if I could reach one and got myself wedged from hips to head in the freezer. Ok, stop laughing before you hurt yourself lol. I ate the darn thing but didn't really want it.

I don't want to be the short, fat lady with the nice personality. I do try to eat nutritiously most of the time. I just need someone there to encourage me. When I watch the tv shows about people losing weight etc... I always catch myself standing at the fridge looking for a snack. Am I the only one who does this?

Tina

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Wed, 10-12-2005 - 9:31pm

Hi Tina,


Welcome to the board.

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Registered: 09-10-2005
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 10:12pm

Welcome aboard Tina. Sorry, I didn't mean to laugh, but I just had this image of being stuck in the freezer. I know what I would have done in that situation...I would have ate the ice cream bars before even worrying about getting un-stuck. Like picture this: my fat butt wiggling out the back end, and my family is all trying to grab on and tug, chocolate ice cream smeared all over my face. And when I do finally POP out, I've got an ice cream bar in one hand and an empty stick in the other. LOL
Stick around the boards, read the posts, you'll see a lot of us have had struggles and triumphs. I've only been dieting for about 5-6 weeks this time, and when I started I found these boards. I can't tell you how much these boards have meant to me. It's been a huge help with support, encouragement and even a laugh here and there. I've always had problems with sticking to diets, I'm the type that I barely see or think about a food and I gotta have it. So usually when I would start diets I wouldn't even make it past lunch on the first day. All morning long I would obsess about lunch. MMMMMM deluxe hamber, french fries and a coke. or maybe it'd be a candy bar craving. MMMMM couple of chocolate candy bars. I just couldn't kick it. And the more I would think about dieting, the more I'd eat, feeling the deprivation I guess. But somehow-someway, this diet/time is different. I've been trying to analyze it and figure it out, but I can't find a connection. I'm doing low calorie, low-fat, no special plans or anything. The first 3 weeks or so I was taking some diet pills, but I don't think they did anything. I've been constantly losing about 2 pounds per week, maybe 3. And that's with or without the diet pills. (If you read my journal or some of my other posts, you will notice that I had to buy a new scale in the middle of my diet, so there has been some variance in my "actual" weight). I'm trying to eat healthier too, I've really been staying clear of "empty" foods. Even if it's low-cal or low-fat, if its empty, I try to stay away. For example, I'll choose yogurt (170 cal 1.5g fat) over 4 pieces of Twizzlers licorice(130 cal 0fat). And I cut out Coke and replaced it with 8+ glasses of water every day. No juice, no diet pop, just wawa. In the last 5 weeks I've had one and a half cans of coke, and one glass of fountain coke. Huge step for me.

Oh, and by the way, I tend to be long-winded. So I'll sum it up, by saying hi and welcome.

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Registered: 09-07-2005
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 4:42pm

HI tina welcome and btw your not the only one!


I totally agree with what tammy said i don't know why this time is different for me I just seem to have more resolve, but this is still a fight for me and maybe it will be for a long time, i dont' know for now I just fight,


some things that have helped me are pre made portion control for eg I eat meal bars for breakfast, they are just enough to get my body going(I learned the hard way that skipping bfast made me stop losing weight) I don't let myself thing about if I am hungry or not I have my meal bar and that is it I don't get anymore. I have to just accept that, I also often eat a can of tuna with a couple of tbsp of low fat veggie cream cheese, and about 15 crackers, that is what i am allowed, no more after that I have to just fight the urge. Same as evenings I love to have a big meal after the kids go to bed and feel full(aka stuffed)lol So now I just have to fight that urge and busy my mind and hands so that I am not obsessing over it.


Also for the first while I had to force myself to go for my bike ride( the only form of exercise I remotely like) now I actually kind of miss it when I dont' get to go. yes it is a bit of pain to always find the time but I HAVE to I just dont feel like I have a choice it is a mandatory part of my day whether I like it or not. I have been just really being aware of calories and fat, and keeping the junk away(don't buy it anymore) since june1 and have lost 30 lbs so far, I started out only doing a 30 minute bike ride and it wasnt' very far I have worked up

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