For my "sisters" today

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For my "sisters" today
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Sun, 05-08-2005 - 1:12pm

Thoughts of a Mom
by Maureen K. Higgins

http://www.lamiam.com/celyn/blog/?p=42

Don't even bother trying not to cry.

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Sun, 05-08-2005 - 1:42pm
Thank you. I needed that today.
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Sun, 05-08-2005 - 5:46pm

Thank you so much for sharing this. You are right, the Kleenex is here with me!

I am wondering when Mother's Day is ever going to get easier for me? First I went through 10+ years of infertility/miscarriages which made mother's day the pits, partly because we were the only couple in our family without kids, so we had to cook, plan parties etc. for our family of moms and keep on the happy face.

I thought the pain would end when we adopted. I did have one nice mom's day when my DS turned one and the family celebrated that we were parents. And actually, today was not too bad, DH tried really hard and cooked a gourmet meal--just for me. But I tend to feel so sorry for myself on mom's day and feel so guilty that I even feel badly. I know I am blessed in so many other ways.

Still, no matter what I do, I still mourn the little ones we lost in miscarriage, they were real to me, as well as the dreams that were lost with DS's diagnosis.

But my Eric is my little love, he seems to have some vague idea of Mother's Day and made a card for me with DH's help, ok, it had a Thomas the Tank Engine theme, but that's okay.

I do feel part of a "sisterhood" somehow, especially with this group and a couple of "real life" friends.

Happy Mother's Day to us all!

Love,
Katherine