Its been a long couple of weeks :(
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|Fri, 11-18-2011 - 1:22am|
Sooo on November 3rd I found out that I have gestation diabetes. Well, they sent a referral over to the gestational diabetes specialist that day and they (GD specialist) sat on it until NOW, I have my first appointment on Monday to get all of my stuff, start my daily testing and diet. This all after my Dr appointment on the 22nd, when I told my Dr and she called and ripped into them because the office marked it as urgent as I am so far along at this point. Anyhow, that appointment went HORRIBLE!! She is already throwing c-section at me because she *THINKS* the baby might be too big. UGH, I am having NO PART OF IT AT ALL!! I delivered an 8lb 14oz HUGE shoulder boy in 2-3 pushes with no issues, I'm sure I will be able to get Adelaide out. I have an U/S on the 23rd to measure her size (which could be off by 2lbs or more) and IF they THINK she will be over 9.5 lbs they are going to try to shove a c-section on me, which I will absolutely REFUSE. I demand that they at least allow me to try to do it naturally first, this isn't my first go around and I have done it 3 times over with big babies. My body was made to deliver big babies. I get them out in 3 pushes tops.
Any how, so she had me start non stress tests, twice a week to make sure Addie is doing ok because of the GD thing. Well today was my first non stress test where we found out that I am contracting every 3-4 mins. I was SHOCKED!!! I knew I was contracting but I didn't realize that close and regular. So the Dr there at the hospital said, we will see you next week for your 2 NSTs and then I'm betting the next week when we see you will be because you are in labor. YAY!! I'm hoping I go into labor the first week of December. I refuse to have a c-section. The thought makes me a sick nervous wreck, to the point I would do something stupid like when I go into labor not go to the hospital until the last min, OR if when I see my Dr again on the 29th and she starts trying to back me into a corner with this whole c-section thing, I might just switch Drs. Something I don't want to do but will if I absolutely have to.
So that's my update, I have felt so disconnected and scared since she said c-section and she kept throwing still birth and perm damage around (which I think was to scare me). She kept saying still birth over the GD thing and them sitting on it forever (why you would say that to a mother who has had losses recently I don't know) so when I got home I did some research and the %ing of still birth is soooo low. Then she kept trying to scare me into forcing me to have a c-section by saying that I WILL break Addies clavicle bone and it WILL cause perm damage, again I came home and started researching that heck out of that. That break is such a common break and heals very easily and the chances of perm damage are so low. I feel like she is just trying to scare me to death so I will be a "Yes girl" and just do as she says so she can quickly take me to the OR, slice me open get Addie out and make more money. So irritating and has had me a mess. My poor DH, I have spent many sine crying myself to sleep. I just want Addie to be here and ok and I don't want to feel all this extra stress from my Dr which ISN'T good for me, Addie or my sugar levels, I guess stress makes it worse.