Girl #5 on her way. Confused and happy..
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|Tue, 08-31-2010 - 1:10am|
Sorry I have been MIA since my first appointment, but it has been crazy around my house since then. School, puppies, landscaping, life in general....
Anyway. We had our 20 week U/S today and I was glad because I was getting a little worried because I have not felt any movement yet. Out of all my pregnancies this was a first that I had not felt the baby by now. So when I saw those kicks and stretches my heart calmed a little. Measuring about where she should be. EDD was the 9th but was moved to the 15th today. She looks perfect too! We even got to see her face at such an angle that it looked like a 3D picture. She looks just like her 4 older sisters.
I am excited because I have a beautiful healthy baby. DH on the other hand has barely looked at me since we found out. I understand he is disappointed for not getting his boy. And since this baby was a surprise with all the counter measures we were using to prevent, he was hoping it would be a miracle our last baby would be a boy. I feel, like i've done something wrong. While I know I have no control over these things the look he has is so disheartening, I don't think anything I say or do will make it better this time. I just want to sit and cry.
Secondly both sides of our families were disappointed that our #4 was a girl too. In fact they even cancelled my babyshower when they found out.
Because of these 2 things, you girls are the only ones I will be telling and bragging that DH and I are on a very healthy TEAM PINK!!! Hopefully I can keep my mouth shut and just keep referring to my belly as Baby and not her, she, etc... until January when she is born.
Aleisa - Mommy to 4 beautiful girls!!