VENT: Quitting the pump
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|Sun, 07-24-2011 - 1:27pm|
I'm calling it quits. Kendrick, like DS1, couldn't get the latch down so I've been EPing for the second time. With DS1 I made it to 5 months and had a deep freeze full so I quit and felt very good about it. This time around it's AWFUL!
At 2 weeks PP I got a bad case of mastitis that took my supply down from 45oz/day to 25. I have managed to get it back up to 30oz/day but I'm attached to the pump 24/7 it seems like. I've even dropped down to 5 pumps a day and it is still stressing me out! Almost every time I pump DS1 starts picking at LO or getting into something he shouldn't which stresses me out. Then every night I put him to bed at 9 and pump right after but LO starts crying about 5 minutes into it and stresses me out. Each time I pump I'm stuck there for 30-40 minutes and that just isn't practical with 2 under 2.
I'm so stressed out with pumping but I'm also stressed out about quitting. I don't want people to think that I'm selfish or that I don't want what's best for my baby. I hate quitting but I can't stay this stressed out and make my family deal with a crazy mommy.
Shew, I feel much better :)