Update on my baby boy...

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Registered: 02-28-2010
Update on my baby boy...
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 12:42pm

The last 3 days have been the hardest days of my life. Monday we found out that our baby boy didn't have a heartbeat, so that night we went to the hospital so they could place those strips on my cervix to soften it for delivery. Tuesday we went to the hospital early in the morning to start the induced labor. The hospital staff was super amazing and was very helpful and supportive. I got an epidural early into the labor to help, when I hit about 3/4cm it wore off. It took about 2 hours to get the doctor in to redue my epidural, and about 10 minutes after I got my second epidural I delivered my poor baby boy. It was the worst pain in my life, and the whole time I kept thinking that this isn't fair, I don't get to have the joy of my baby to make this all worth it. But once I laid my eyes on my poor baby it did make it worth it. I got to hold him and see him for about 3 hours. And I can tell you right now I would go through all the pain I went through just to be able to hold him again for another 3 hours. He weighed 1lb8oz and was 13 1/4 inches. He was so tiny, but so perfect and so beautiful. I am so heartbroken, and I feel so empty. I have been crying non-stop for 3 days now. It just isn't fair. The doctors still don't know what happened to him. They are doing some tests but it may take awhile to get them back. This is the worst nightmare I think any mother could imagine. But anyways, I just thought I would give you guys an update, and thought I would say my goodbyes, don't see myself getting on here much anymore, it hurts way to bad...Thank you all for the support that you have given me in my times of need...



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Registered: 08-26-2003
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 1:08pm
I can't begin to imagine what you must be feeling. I'm glad you got an opportunity to hold him. Take the time you need to heal. Sending so many prayers your way.

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Registered: 12-05-2006
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 2:16pm

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how you must feel right now. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-18-2009
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 2:17pm
Thank you for sharing. I can't imagine your pain.
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Registered: 07-05-2005
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 2:41pm
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. (((((HUGS)))))

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Registered: 12-15-2008
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 3:28pm
Thank you for stopping by and giving us an update. I cannot begin to imagine the emotional pain you are going through now. I cried just reading your post. I hope that you will eventually get some answers and I wish you the best.

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Registered: 07-07-2008
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 3:29pm
I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry for you loss. (((HUGS)))
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Registered: 08-13-2007
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 4:23pm
I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that you can find the strngth to get threw this most difficult time, and can find answers as to why this tragedy occured. Take all the time to heal and remeber we are all here if you need anything.
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-03-2008
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 4:32pm

Words can't express how sorry I am for your loss! I will keep you and your family in my prayers!

Best Wishes!

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-09-2003
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 5:46pm

I am so sorry for your loss.

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-13-2004
Thu, 03-10-2011 - 7:08pm

I was so hoping to hear that the doctors were wrong. You and your family are in my prayers.