Hi ladies, I am not sure who all will remember me as I haven't posted in awhile. But, I have been following the board throughout our pregnancies.
To perhaps jog your memory, I was due 11/11 and my DH was diagnosed with brain cancer back in May.
I just can't seem to stay away from here and wanted to share my son's birth story, but thought I would wait until it seemed as though all November moms had delivered. Sometimes I feel like I am grasping at straws to try and stay connected to my pregnancy, and be a part of whatever I can. And so, with that, I hope it is ok for me to share (warning, loss mentioned):
Copied and pasted from my blog:
Carter Michael was stillborn at 5:40 am on 10/18/2011 In my heart of hearts, I know when he passed, but I am not sure if I will ever be able to articulate that.
The Friday before he was born, I was having lots of signs of impending labor - spotting, cramps, etc. Saturday morning came with some strong contractions, but they stopped and there were no signs of labor anytime soon all day Sunday and most of Monday.
By Monday afternoon, I knew something was starting to brew, but I couldn't say with any confidence that it was time. The cramping increased during dinner and by the time I tucked Livie into bed, I was fairly confident that we would be heading to the hospital sometime that night. In true nesting fashion, I cleaned the bathroom and living room before settling on the couch to watch TV with Shawn.
Shawn and I were laughing as Carter moved his little butt around in my stomach. You could see and feel it moving from side to side. I wish I had taken a
I'm so sorry to hear this. God and life - both work in mysterious ways that we'll never understand. I pray that you and your family get the strength to deal with this. Thank you for sharing. Your story brought tears to my eyes.