Depressed

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Registered: 01-03-2011
Depressed
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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 9:31am

Since yesterday, I have just felt so down. I really feel like this baby is never going to come out. I keep crying and breaking down. I just don't know how much longer this can go on. I'm so sick of being pregnant. It feels like it's been forever since I've been "me." With everything all ready for the baby and set up, it's just making it worse. I'm really starting to hate looking at the empty bassinet and nursery and the baby toys in the living room. Just seeing the car seat all ready is making me nauseous. I don't even particularly like the idea of having another baby at this point. I think if he ever comes out, I might resent him for making me feel this way. I don't know. I'm just feeling exhausted and overwhelmed.

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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 9:44am
Have you been sleeping? I feel MISERABLE. I haven't slept worth CRAP lately. I was up until at least 1 am last night (probably later) and up by 5:30...and that was a relatively good night in comparison to some!! Also, last night, after my hair appointment, I met up with dh and he was all preoccupied with work stuff so our spontaneous "date" turned into him sitting and texting while I felt like crying the whole time. It takes very little to take me from feeling pretty good to being super depressed. I'm going to be discussing my option with my doctor on Monday...but then I think...maybe I should be enjoying these last few days of relative "freedom"...I'm torn.
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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 9:51am
I haven't been sleeping or eating well. And, I'm stressed about money and work (it's the close of the fiscal year for us, so everyone is nuts right now) on top of it. I think if yesterday at the doctor, if she had given me any thread of hope of this baby coming on time or early, I would have been happy, but it felt so set in stone that he's going to take his time. I know it's irrational, but I don't think he is ever going to come out. I just can't stop crying. And, I feel so guilty for feeling this down about everything. DH promised to let me just sleep away the entire weekend, which I think may actually be a good idea. I remember when I was pregnant with my son for the last weeks (he was very overdue), I slept 20 hours a day and got super depressed, but it was the situation around the pregnancy more than pregnancy itself I thought, but maybe I was wrong.
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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 9:57am
I'm sorry you aren't feeling well these days. Hopefully getting some sleep, and venting to us here, will help you feel a little bit better. If you still feel severely depressed, maybe talk to your doctor? Slipping into PPD after your baby boy is born is not something we would want, and your doctor should have some insight on how to help you. (((HUG))) Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 10:06am
If I still feel this way by next Thursday, I will definitely be bringing it up to my doctor. I'm not sure if it's another mood swing starting back up again yet, or if this is going to hang around for awhile.
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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 12:14pm

I hope after the weekend your feeling better!

 

 

 

~Jenn~

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Fri, 08-19-2011 - 10:56pm

I can totally relate.

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Mon, 08-22-2011 - 10:22am
Ugh. Friday afternoon - a coworker ask me how I was doing, and I answered honestly - that I was feeling really down. He response really made me feel even worse - she told me about how she had post-partum depression and never wanted to even hold her child because she was angry at the baby. I feel like this is the opposite of that almost - like I'll be fine once the baby is out, I'm just upset because he's still inside. And, then Friday night my husband mentioned that he was concerned that I would have a "touch of post partum depression." The whole thing just made me feel even worse. Like I'm a failure at having children and being a mom. I already feel that sometimes because I work and don't have much time with my son.

I managed to distract myself and get to feeling more like myself this weekend, but this morning (back at work), I'm right back to where I was plus some. I just want my body back. I hate not having control over my own life, schedule, body, etc right now. I just want to not be pregnant any more.
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Mon, 08-22-2011 - 11:38am

(((HUGS))) to you.