Everything is my fault...

I really, seriously thought that life could not get any more complicated and stressful as last week. Boy, was I wrong.

So, we're broke. Seriously broke. We went up to dh's grandparents house for the weekend bc his mom said she would pay us for gas. She gave us almost 1/3 of what she said she would, leaving us severely in the whole. No including the check she supposedly mailed a couple weeks ago for dh's birthday. We were counting on that money. And then, $30 that was not supposed to be deducted from my account was.

And, then this morning dh calls to say the electrity got cut off. I'm a month behind on the electricity, but I'm ALWAYS a month behind. But, apparently they have a cut off for the amount you can be behind on before it's disconnected. They didn't bother to tell me this at all. Or, i would have paid the full amount when I had the money a couple weeks ago.

Now, I've got dh snapping at me. (He still doesn't have access to the bank account or bills, since we got married.) So, it's all my fault. Last week, the cable and the internet got shut off, and we cant afford to turn those back on, but in 100degree heat, we can't go very long with no a/c. i feel like crap.

Everything is entirely my fault. I talked to the electric company, and they agreed to take the last $85 in my account. Which, is good and bad. We have no more money until the 1st when I get paid again. I just don't know what to do. We had $350 set aside to buy a crib and changing table, but now that's gone too - something dh didn't realize and I got yelled at for too. I just don't know what to do. I feel like such a screw up.