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|Sat, 08-18-2012 - 9:03am|
Bf'ing is really getting to me. I've always hated it, but getting to a whole new level, where I feel my blood boil any time I have to do it, but at the same time I know I have to for DD's heath/survival. DD feels the need to take ove the compression while bf'ing, if I try to do it she gets mad. Last night DD was up 5 times to be fed. 6 month old babies are said to be ok if they sleep through the night without being fed (if my memory serves me correctly), so I can't figure out why DD can't make it through the night without being fed. I give her an 8oz bottle of regular homo cow's milk at bed time so I am not having the bf'd her to sleep. I get very irritable with her during the night especially when I bf'd her and then she stops on her own and the cries again a few min later to be bf'd again. At time I get so irritated that I end up yelling at her to go to sleep; which I know is SO wrong, but it is so wearing on me. Her weight has increased to where she is up to the 25th! So I know she is getting enough, but I think it might be the junk she eat (she won't eat healthy stuff). I would be inclined to not give the junk, but that you force me to bf'd her more to maintain her weight. Someone mentioned to maybe take out one of the sessions, but when I tried that and refused DD's request she becomes violant (yelling/screaming, and hitting me; but maybe that's normal?)
I have years to this to go, how am I going to make it through?