Feeling Depressed Today

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Registered: 06-09-2008
Feeling Depressed Today
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Thu, 06-30-2011 - 12:28pm

I am feeling really depressed today. My milk is totally gone and I don't think I am going to be able to relactate. I feel so crushed. I know I should be happy for what I was able to give my baby (6 mos of breastmilk) but I can't seem to focus on that. Before I started taking medicine for the postpartum depression I felt like the breastfeeding was making everything so much worse. Now that I am on medicine for the PPD I know that it was just the PPD and not the breastfeeding. Now I wish I could go back and do things different. I hate that Ii gave up on the nursing and that I didn't get help sooner for the PPD.

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Registered: 04-13-2008
Thu, 06-30-2011 - 1:43pm

Sorry to hear about your battles with PPD, but you are right in saying breastfeeding was not actually making it worse. In fact, there is some evidence that it is worse

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Registered: 06-09-2008
Thu, 06-30-2011 - 4:37pm

I haven't been breastfeeding now for about 2 months. My supply was really good when I was nursing. I never had any problems really with a low supply or anything like that.

The reason I say that there isn't any hope for relactating is that I have been pumping for the last 3 days and haven't really gotten anything. I have gotten a few drops of an orangish fatty substance (The lactation consultant in my area said that is fluid and not milk). I have been also taking fenugreek for the past 3 days as well. I spoke with the lactation consultant at the hospital today and she said to see if the dr. would out me on reglan. I called the dr. office and they said they couldn't really do anything about it since I stopped nursing 2 months ago and that if it was 1 week or something like that they could have helped.

I am totally prepared to do whatever it takes to get my supply back even if it is only half back or something like that. I am a stay at home mom so I can dedicate time to pumping. My son will not latch back on as of now. Thanks for your advice!

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Registered: 06-10-2008
Thu, 06-30-2011 - 9:44pm
I wouldn't be expecting to see a ton of progress by the 3 day mark if you're totally relactating. I would give it at least a few weeks before determining that it wasn't going to work. Many moms also need to wait up to a week for the fenugreek to have an impact. Even if you had been nursing all along and you were questioning the fenugreek, I'd be telling you it was too early to determine whether it was working or not.

You're the only one who can determine the right point at which to throw in the towel but I'm sure only pumping for three days is enough to determine whether this is a lost cause.
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Registered: 04-13-2008
Fri, 07-01-2011 - 4:50am

Don't be discouraged by not getting anything after three days. The important thing is that you have already started to stimluate the breast.

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Registered: 06-09-2008
Fri, 07-01-2011 - 8:13am

I will keep at it for a few more weeks. I totally want this to work and am determined even though I know I probably don't sound like it. It's just a little disheartening. I was really hoping that the dr. would put me on reglan but for whatever reason this request was denied.

I have been trying to get my son to latch on but he won't at this point. I am going to keep working on this. I do have a good medela electric pump. I just wish I had never stopped nursing in the first place!! I keep everyone up to date on hopefully some progress soon. Thanks for your support and advice-it means a lot right now!

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Registered: 04-13-2008
Fri, 07-01-2011 - 8:37am

The idea of just hanging out for a while with skin contact, or even bathing together is good. He may surprise you one day and try to latch.

Also, an idea is to try when he is not very hungry. eg hold him in a BF position while you bottle feed, and with your breast bare enough, and as he has drunk most of what he usually takes from the bottle, see if he will switch at this stage.

He may not at first, but it is worth continuing to try as you do sound really motivated.

Wishing you all the best with this.

Have you read this from kelly mom? It also has links to other pages that may give you more helpful tips.

http://www.kellymom.com/bf/supply/relactation.html

Teresa

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Registered: 01-12-2006
Wed, 07-06-2011 - 4:45pm
If depression has been an issue for you that may be why your doc is reticent to put you on Reglan ... depression can actually be a side effect. Domperidone is a better option for this reason but is not prescribed in the US as a galactagogue.

hang in there ...