going back to nursing after initiating weaning..possible?
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|Sat, 07-07-2012 - 9:07am|
I have posted many times here before with my multitudes of problems...low supply, baby not feeding well, low diaper count, low weight gain, bad thrush...etc etc...So here i am again..So dealing with all of the above issues, on may 22nd, my 8 mth old baby was diagnosed with distal rta, an inborn defect in kidney tubule, which leads to acidosis and poor growth. I was devastated to hear the diagnosis, and its complications, but the ped nephrologist reassured me it is self correcting usually, no kidney failure, in short not that serious if treated.
Basically the baby needs a citrate supplement to correct his acidosis..nonetheless, i was extremely guilty because i had been bf him and didnt give him vitamin D supplements. My own vit . D were severely low too, and i didnt take supplements myself either. I felt i had been giving him inferior quality breastmilk. And 2 weeks after diagnosis, i put him on formula, just as a supplement because he has been really bad at nursing and i was mostly giving him expressed milk, and sometimes thats not ready as quickly as formula....i did not want to deprive him of nutrition....he only weighed 13 lb at 8 months. way way below the growth curve.....
Well, my supply was still good, in fact more than what he consumed...but slowly i drifted towards not pumping often, thinking..what the heck.....why keep giving him inferior breastmilk...Then i went to visit my family for my brothers wedding for 12 days, rented a medela symphony pump there as well, but still continued nursing him, but he bit me so bad, and i ended up pumping 2 times or less.....
I thought i would just stop pumping eventually, and let him nurse during the night, when he took my breast directly more readily.
Well, now my supply is about 1/3rd to 1/4th of what it was 6 weeks ago. I then used to make an average of 1 oz. per hour. I pumped about 5 times a day and nursed too.....
With all the infrequent pumping, and few days as big gaps as 24 hrs...i am drying up, and now the dilemma is that the baby has teethed too, bites horribly, and because my supply is so diminished he doesnt want to nurse anyway.. My breast size has dramatically decreased.too.
My question: I now want to increase my supply at least to a level where the baby might have at least some milk to want to nurse....i hate to let that bond go...for the past 1 week, i am now pumping every 5-6 hrs, sometimes 10 hr gap at night......i am trying hard to keep up with his nutrition with formula and solids..i am meeting with a nutritionist soon as well recommended by my babys pediatrician....... i now feel i was stupid to allow my supply to dry up when i was already making enough and more to meet his demands....i do not regret starting formula because even though i was averse to the idea of formula (i HATE formula, its smell, taste, and the huge list of ingredients ) but i didnt want to cpmoromise my baby s growth...and with formula, i just make more in the bottle than what i feel he might drink....with breastmilk (expressed) u have to make sure it doesnt go to waste.....thaw just enough, if the baby wants more, it will take time to thaw , will get impatient , refuse to drink etc etc.....so i felt in the light of his poor weight gain, i would start formula, which the peds recommended too..
Anyway, my question is : what are my chances of building my supply back up so the baby can effectively nurse and i can pump better volumes? I know in the last few months, my body responded pretty well on at least 2 different occasions, when my supply dipped and i made it go back up. But never before did i pump this infrequently like just twice a day....and the breast size didnt go this small either...
I guess the answer is ..everyones body is different and it might respond, might not..but i would like to hear any general comments, that after 6 weeks of poor pumping habits, what are the chances??
I am able to pump every 2-3 hrs with a medela symphony double electric rented pump. I can start today, but knowing that it will help will motivate me to pump, otherwise i will just give up. I am now only making 1 oz after 3 hrs. And seeing milk come out in v. slow drops instead of a spurt is quite discouraging...but as i said, as long as i know theres hope, i can try to pump every 2-3 hrs. (for the last one week i m pumping every 5-6 hrs , but much longer gaps at night 10-12 hrs...and because i have cuts on my nipple, i m not nursing, he doesnt take it anyway, and today he had his first tooth.....clinked on the glass!!!)