2 Weeks In- Wanting to Quit

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Registered: 10-28-2012
2 Weeks In- Wanting to Quit
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Sun, 10-28-2012 - 2:08pm

Hi Everyone, I wanted to say you all are the strongest women in the world!

I am two weeks into pumping exclusively. My baby boy would not latch at the hospital. I left with a breast shield. Then the doctor said he would not gain weight properly on that alone. We have seen two LC multiple times and he is going to chiropractor for unaligned jaws. Possibly looking at a frenulim clip in a week. But am worried he’ll never latch onto just me because of the bottle. 

Since I have to go back to work in 3mos, and planed to pump then, I decided to start pumping now and bottle-feed. No big deal right? WRONG! I feel so overwhelmed and anxious all the time. I pump every 2-3 hours for 15-20 minutes. My supply is low, sometimes I don’t get enough for the next feeding. He gets a few formula bottles a day. My husband is taking another unpaid week off work. But will have to start working 12-hour days soon. I am afraid I might lose my mind then!

We tried so long for our baby, and now I feel like I’m not enjoying this life because I’m constantly worried about my supply or I’m exhausted from getting up every two hours to feed THEN PUMP. I feel awful for wanting to quit so soon. But everyone keeps telling me a happy mom=happy baby. How do I deal with guilt if I decide to stop??

So Torn Frown

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Registered: 11-12-2012
Mon, 11-12-2012 - 1:33pm

Congrats on deciding to try pumping.  I did it for 4 months with my first son, now aiming to get thru the flu season with my 2nd.  I've been at it for 5 months now and have a pretty good routine but establishing it did take some time.

My advice is to listen to yourself & make sure you have a really good pump!  (it really does make all the difference).  If pumping so often is too draining (trust me, it is!) then just decide that you will do it on YOUR terms and be OK with supplementing with formula.  That's what I did for the first 4 months.  Now I make enough to cut out the formula.  You need rest & less stress. 

Trust yourself and know that even a bottle or 2 of breastmilk per day is beneficial.  You're doing a great job and there's nothing wrong with being frustrated!  And certainly nothing wrong with doing both breastmilk and formula.  :)  Hang in there! 

(my story...I have 2 boys one 2 yrs old (i pumped for 4 months with him) and a 5 mo old.  I plan to pump through flu season (April).  I pump 3 or 4 times per day and never in the middle of the night.  We all need our rest!!)

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Registered: 11-12-2012
Mon, 11-12-2012 - 1:34pm

Congrats on deciding to try pumping.  I did it for 4 months with my first son, now aiming to get thru the flu season with my 2nd.  I've been at it for 5 months now and have a pretty good routine but establishing it did take some time.

My advice is to listen to yourself & make sure you have a really good pump!  (it really does make all the difference).  If pumping so often is too draining (trust me, it is!) then just decide that you will do it on YOUR terms and be OK with supplementing with formula.  That's what I did for the first 4 months.  Now I make enough to cut out the formula.  You need rest & less stress. 

Trust yourself and know that even a bottle or 2 of breastmilk per day is beneficial.  You're doing a great job and there's nothing wrong with being frustrated!  And certainly nothing wrong with doing both breastmilk and formula.  :)  Hang in there! 

(my story...I have 2 boys one 2 yrs old (i pumped for 4 months with him) and a 5 mo old.  I plan to pump through flu season (April).  I pump 3 or 4 times per day and never in the middle of the night.  We all need our rest!!)

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Registered: 10-28-2012
Sun, 12-02-2012 - 7:19pm

Thank you for the support! I would have never thought when I posted this originally I would have made it to week 7. (and with a freezer full of milk already) I have fallen in to a pretty good routine, and am actually out producing my son’s appetite. I pump every three hours get no less than 6 ounces. I go a little longer at night usually between 4 and 6 hours depending on when he gets up and get almost 10 ounces. I try to coordinate a feeding a pumping. Some days I feel like I could do it for the whole year and others I hope to make it through my maternity leave. I am hoping to drop pumps when I go back to work. I would love to get down to 5 or less a day and none between 11-5am. Just hoping it doesn’t kill my supply.

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Registered: 04-14-2011
Fri, 12-07-2012 - 11:39am

Congrats on making it to 7 weeks.  My original goal was to pump for 1 year.  Then when I realized how hard it was I changed my goal to be 6 months.  In the end I pumped for 14 months and had 2-3 months milk in the freezer (I would have had much more but I donated two times to clean out my freezer).  It does get easier as the time goes on!!

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