2 Weeks In- Wanting to Quit
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|Sun, 10-28-2012 - 2:08pm|
Hi Everyone, I wanted to say you all are the strongest women in the world!
I am two weeks into pumping exclusively. My baby boy would not latch at the hospital. I left with a breast shield. Then the doctor said he would not gain weight properly on that alone. We have seen two LC multiple times and he is going to chiropractor for unaligned jaws. Possibly looking at a frenulim clip in a week. But am worried he’ll never latch onto just me because of the bottle.
Since I have to go back to work in 3mos, and planed to pump then, I decided to start pumping now and bottle-feed. No big deal right? WRONG! I feel so overwhelmed and anxious all the time. I pump every 2-3 hours for 15-20 minutes. My supply is low, sometimes I don’t get enough for the next feeding. He gets a few formula bottles a day. My husband is taking another unpaid week off work. But will have to start working 12-hour days soon. I am afraid I might lose my mind then!
We tried so long for our baby, and now I feel like I’m not enjoying this life because I’m constantly worried about my supply or I’m exhausted from getting up every two hours to feed THEN PUMP. I feel awful for wanting to quit so soon. But everyone keeps telling me a happy mom=happy baby. How do I deal with guilt if I decide to stop??