Question on pumping less and guilty weaning

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Registered: 02-06-2012
Question on pumping less and guilty weaning
Mon, 02-06-2012 - 3:57pm

Hi girls, i have recently found your board and im so excited to finally find a place i feel i belong! I never seemed to fit with breastfeeding moms who didnt understand why i couldnt breast feed or formula moms who couldnt understand why i go through the trouble of pumping all day and night long :)

My journey has been a rough one, for whatever medical reason my milk never fully came in. My breasts have never been full and I have never had more then .5 oz out of my right breast even with a hosp pump. I nursed for 1 month before the drs made me supplement because she was not thriving. Ive been pumping exclusively now for 4 months and on domperidone and fenugreek. I was pumping every 2-3 hours with a very low output. At around 4 months I was pumping around the clock every 4 hours (never more then 5 at night)

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Registered: 02-06-2012
Mon, 02-06-2012 - 5:34pm
Reading your post I can 100% relate. I have been pumping since day one, and my baby is only 4 weeks old. Major props to you in sticking with it for this long feeling the way you are, Im not sure if I will make it. We had latching issues from day one, and have not yet been able to get him to breastfeed. I know that EP is was best for us, atleast right now. I too feel guilty when I think about giving up, but having no help and working, and having school (online) full time Im going crazy from lack of sleep.

I think you have been doing a great job for these past months, I dont know if ill be able to make it as far as you. You should not feel guilty if life pushes you to wean. You did the best you could and you should be proud of that. Remember some BM is better than none.

Best of luck!!
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Registered: 10-14-2010
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 7:23am
First of all, good for you for getting this far! It is so hard to give up the closeness of breastfeeding, plus your body, plus so much of your time to dedicate to pumping. And can be extra hard when you are struggling with supply on top of that. You are doing a great job!

Your sanity is important, for yourself, for your baby, and for your husband. If pumping 4 times is manageable to you and makes pumping bearable. I would continue to try the four times and see if it works for you. Then, if it doesn't, you can retire knowing that you did the very best you could. Any amount of breastmilk is great for baby, and you have been providing it for four months!

As for the guilt, nearly everyone has it. I pumped for a year and still felt weird about stopping! If you're not feeling guilty about this, it will be something else. It's part of being a mom--always wanting the best for you baby, and sometimes second guessing yourself.

So give yourself a giant pat on the back and major props for getting this far! Keep us posted on how you're doing!


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Registered: 05-25-2011
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 2:21pm

I can relate to how you feel because I, too, have never been able to pump enough milk for my baby.

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Registered: 02-07-2012
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 8:19pm

You sound just like me a few months ago, even down to how much you are getting out of each side. Have you tried to squeeze or massage more milk out after you pump? I found that I still had a lot of milk left that the pump wasn't getting. I started being able to empty my breast at each pump and started to gradually increase my supply. Might be worth a try.