Feeling sad about stopping...anyone else?

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Feeling sad about stopping...anyone else?
Wed, 05-15-2013 - 8:44pm

Hi, I don't think I've ever posted here before.  My son was born at 31 weeks and has laryngomalacia and had severe tongue tie so was never was able to latch.  I've been pumping since day one.  I thought it would be just until he came home from the NICU, but then he just couldn't nurse, so I kept pumping.  My goal was to get to six months, and  that came and went and I kept pumping.  Then my goal was to get to one year, but then we discovered he has a dairy allergy, so I kept on pumping.  Then I set a new goal of getting him through cold and flu season this year.  I've been taking domperidone to help keep up my supply and I just ran out.  He's 18 months old now and I know it's time to quit, and I've reduced my pumping down from once a day to every other day, so I know the end is near!  I didn't expect to, but I feel rather sad about stopping.  Is it normal to have mixed feelings like this?  I feel great in a way (freedom!!:), but I also feel sad.  I didn't mind pumping most of the time, especially once I was able to drop pumps to 1-2x per day. 

He's my fifth baby and I nursed all the others until 18 months to 3 yrs when they weaned themselves.   I think partly I'm just sad that my teensy tiny baby is growing up so fast!  Anyone else feel sad about quitting?