Thinking of quitting

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Registered: 12-31-1969
Thinking of quitting
Sun, 09-16-2012 - 1:31pm
My son will be 12 weeks next week and has been exclusively on breastmilk sice around week three. With the help of all uou wonderful ladies on the board I have made it this far and this seems easier than before. The pain is not as bad either. And yet I find myself sitting here thinking about quitting. I promised myself I would not quit befor going back to work, next week will mark three weeks back in the office. I promised myself I wouldn't quit while still dealing with thrush, that is gone. I told myself I would try and breast feed again and have been feeding once or twice a day for a little over a week. I got the pumpin pals this week and have been disappointed, pumping takes so much longer with them. I guess I am just tired. Tired of having to figure out how to squeeze in pumps at work when I am double and triple booked all day with meetings. Tired of the anxiety of how much or little I am producing. Tired of worrying about missing a pump session, sleeping an extra hour, if I am taking enough herbs. Tired of eating oatmeal. Tired of being too tired to exercise or spend time with my husband. Tired of having to tell my other two boys they have to wait while I desperately try and get 3 or4 oz from a session. I am tied of not losing anymore weight ( I thought that was supposed to be a perk of doing this!). And most of all tired of feeling guilty for wanting to stop. Thanks for listening.
iVillage Member
Registered: 05-21-2013
Wed, 05-22-2013 - 10:08am
How are you ladies pumping so much? I get 12oz per day at best, and I've tried everything. Please tell me your secret!
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Registered: 04-20-2008
Mon, 09-17-2012 - 3:12pm
I know how you feel. My goal was also to make it to 12 weeks, and since then i've been thinking of quittting. In 5 days I will have been pumping for 6 months. It does get easier. The more pumps you drop, the better it will feel. Im now down to 3 times a day. my supply has dropped ( from 55oz a day to about 40oz) but at least i have more time to spend with my daughter and husband. I make enough to cover her day, and dont bother with freezing the left overs, which also saves time.
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Registered: 10-14-2010
Sun, 09-16-2012 - 7:32pm
Oh, pumping can be so hard, especially with other children and the demands of life. At this point, it is a quality of life issue and you will have to decide what works best for the quality of your whole family's lives. Would you be content providing some, but not all breastmilk? If yes, you could significantly cut down your number of pumps and still provide some milk. That might help create some balance in your life and reduce some of the stress. I did find a few extra pounds lingered while pumping, but I was able to eat so much more than while not pumping, and a few more pounds actually ended up sneaking back on when I stopped and didn't have the extra calorie burn. Just a word to the wise-if you stop, be more mindful of your diet than I was!

Just remember, whatever you decide, you have done well to get this far--12 weeks is definitely an achievement to celebrate!