Don't wanna stop but fam is pressuring
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|Sat, 01-02-2010 - 12:02am|
I have been pumping for just shy of 18 mos. & feel I'm not ready to HUTH yet. However, I seem to not have a say in the matter since that decision affects my husband & both of my parents, who also live with us. All have suggested that I should quit since DS is pretty much weaned,(my parents more so than my DH) but I don't want to & am angry that I'm slowly being mentally forced to quit.
To me, it seems that they think I'm taking advantage of them by going off to the computer to pump(this is the only place I don't suffer extreme boredom). I think they've gotten tired of being stuck with the baby so often, which I can understand. But I'm upset that I'm no longer getting the support I had when DS was younger. I thought I was the one to decide when to quit! What's sad is that I couldn't do this at all if they weren't living with us, because I have no one else to babysit. So even if I addressed my complaints to them in a calm way, my requests would still be denied because "they know me better than that".
I will say that I have gotten attached to my pump, because I can't really go out anywhere anyway & this is pretty much my only release. I don't want anyone taking that away from me, even if they say "I'd never stop unless forced to". I don't feel it's right to force me to, but what choice do I have? I can't stand confrontations, especially ones with my parents because I never win. Is there ANY hope I can lean on to be able to pump when I need to again?