One More Day

Tomorrow is my follow up appointment for my bleeding. On one hand I just want it to be here so it can be over with and I can move on. I just don't "feel" pregnant anymore, not meaning symptoms. It's like I just know something isn't right. On the other hand I want it to keep being far away so that I can keep holding onto hope. If there is nothing on the ultrasound screen tomorrow like I think there will be its just so final. I've still been having heavy spotting but not quite flow that comes and goes with a few small clots for the whole week. Only tomorrow will tell but I could really use some P&PT until then. Thanks.