5 weeks along, thrilled and terrified!

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Registered: 10-19-2010
5 weeks along, thrilled and terrified!
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Tue, 10-19-2010 - 1:22am

I got pregnant 11 years ago and lost it at 9 weeks. I fell into a horrible depression afterwards.

Now I am a newlywed and we just found out that we are expecting! So excited and so scared!

I made an appointment with the doctor, and was seen today. I wanted to know how worried I should be since I am 33, a smoker and I take Klonopin for anxiety. She wanted me to quit the meds cold turkey, but thats just not possible. I have to wean off. I have cut way back on smoking, but found cold turkey was insane and I feel guilty every time I light up.

I have an appointment in 2 weeks for an ultrasound to verify viability. I wish I could stop worrying. I

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Registered: 08-14-2007
Mon, 11-01-2010 - 9:46am

Julie,

That is so frustrating that they aren't supporting you with the meds. I can completely understand the need to ease off, or to continue if needed (because sometimes benefits do outweigh risks). But it would be nice to have your OB/NP support you.

Yes, I'm due with #2 in April. The pregnancies are similar in symptoms. I'm high risk, and didn't know it until 22 weeks with #1 but now have been closely monitored from much earlier with #2. So I'm not really the best person to do pregnancy comparisons since mine are far from normal. :) But definitely hoping to avoid some of the traumas I had with #1. This will definitely be our last - after the first, I wasn't sure we would have more due to my difficult pregnancy, but I wanted my first to have a sibling. But no more after this!

Melissa

Mama to Chase (4) and Mason (2)

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Sat, 10-30-2010 - 1:56pm

Hi Melissa!

Thanks for your reply. I am still working on the not smoking thing, but everything else seems to be going well.

I had my first ultrasound yesterday. Baby measures 5.5mm and I was able to hear the heart beat at 120bpm. I was so excited, I laughed and cried! I am due June 19th.

Still trying to work out the meds. My med manager told me to stay on the Klonopin, that the benefits outweigh the risks.

My OB's NP told me yesterday that I am their patient and they have jurisdiction over any other doctor I may have. She told me to quit the Klonopin cold turkey. I explained to her that people who quit cold turkey have withdrawl symptoms similar to what heroin addicts go through except with this medication it could also throw me into a seizure or cardiac arrest. I told her the best I could do was drop down a mg every 10 days. She didnt want to hear my excuses and asked me how important it was to me to have a healthy baby. So there I am with that.

Just praying for a healthy baby.

You are due in April? How was your first pregnancy compared to this one?

I have 2 stepsons and am pretty sure this will be my only one. lol. Maybe.

Again, thanks for replying to me. Its nice not to feel so alone in this.

Julie

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Registered: 08-14-2007
Tue, 10-19-2010 - 9:39am

Hi there!

Welcome, and congrats! I know it is hard to not worry esp. when you've experience previous losses or issues. I think you're DH's advice is fabulous (if it's meant to be it will be) - this is something I tell myself often, though I agree that as the mommy it is often harder!

I have no experience with nicotine addiction or anti-anxiety meds. However, I agree with your dr. in that you should certainly quit smoking and cut back on the meds (assuming they are dangerous in pregnancy, which I would guess they are since she told you to quit them) or try to find an alternate anti-anxiety med that is safer. This is a really critical time in baby's development; however,

Melissa

Mama to Chase (4) and Mason (2)