I just wanted to thank everyone
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|Sun, 04-27-2003 - 3:47pm|
It had been a perfectly healthy pregnancy and my OB says I have what is called Incompetent Cervix. My cervix painlessly dialated and my body realized this was happening and started contracting my uterus which sent me into pre-term labor. I had been noticing pain all morning but it wasn't too bad until I got into the shower, and then I knew they were contractions because I couldn't move or talk during them, and they were lasting almost a minute. I sat on the toilet because I felt like I needed to go, and all I saw was bright red blood. Thank God my DH was home for lunch at the time, he rushed me to the hospital, and by the time I got there, I was already 10 cm and my membranes were on the verge of bursting.
It was such a horrific experience for me, because when you go into labor with a full term baby, you're in pain, but you're so excited to see your baby. With me, I was in pain and I was terrified about what would happen. I am so terrified to get pregnant again, I never want to experience this again.
My OB says next time I get pregnant, I will have a cerclage (stitch in my cervix) and I will always have c-sections. I am thankful to at least have been given the chance to have more, but I'm so terrified that I will always lose them. I don't know how I will be able to go 9 months worrying every single day if this is the day I go into labor.
I miss him so much. I miss him in my belly, I miss feeling him kick, seeing DH talk to him, buying him baby stuff. I miss the beautiful pregnant feeling I had. That probably has been the hardest part. I don't have my baby in my belly anymore.
I really appreciated all of the support from this board and it is so sad to leave, but I wish you all the happiness in the world and if you want to keep in touch you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Allyson EDD 8/5 - Anthony Joseph born April 15, passed away April 16