I lost my baby

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I lost my baby
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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 9:20am
I just wanted to let you know that we lost our baby on April 16th.

I was having lots of cramping on April 15th, and had bright red blood - my DH rushed me to L&D where they said I was 10 centimeters and my bag was about to burst. Baby was ok, his HB was 170 and he was kicking up a storm. They rushed me into emergency C-section where he was born on April 15 and lived 34 hours. He was doing fine for the first 30 hours, he was trying to breathe on his own and everything, but then he got blood in his lungs and he couldn't fight it.

I have been in a state of shock this whole week, I had no idea that this would happen to me, I had no problems through out my pregnancy and the baby was healthy. I have what is called an incompetant cervix. My cervix will start to dialate without me feeling anything, then my body will realize this is happening and I will start having contractions and go into labor. By the time this happened to me, it was too late to stop it. My OB says next time I get PG I will have a stitch put in my cervix to prevent it from dialating, and I will never have a vaginal birth, which really upset me, but at this point I will be thankful to even have another child.

My DH and I are absolutely heartbroken, I was 24 weeks and couldn't have imagined this would have happened. The only thing getting us through is knowing there is always another chance, but I miss being pregnant so much...I miss feeling him kick and I miss the beautiful feeling I felt.

I wish you all the happiness and hope you are all blessed with healthy miracles from God.

Allyson EDD 8/5 Anthony Joseph born April 15 passed April 16

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 9:28am
I am so sorry for your loss. I am without words to give you, I know you must devastated. As you say, at least you can still try to have another child. You will be on my mind and in my prayers.

Jeanne
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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 9:56am
Allyson, I can't even find the words to say right now. I am so sorry to hear of your tragedy. Please know that you, your DH and Anthony Jospeh will be in my thoughts.
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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 9:58am
Oh Allyson...I am so sorry.

My heart is breaking for you...and I will keep you, DH, and little Anthony in my prayers.

Lana

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:00am
I'm so sorry, sweetie. I will remember you and your DH in my prayers.


(((HUGE HUGS))) to both of you.

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:01am
Allyson,

This is Robin from TTC#1 board. Oh honey, I am so very sorry. I do not understand what you are going through, but I will do anything I can to be here for you. I had a m/c in December, so maybe in some tiny way I can relate to how you must feel. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I would not venture to quote any wise advice to you...I know that would never help. What I do hope helps is that there are tons of ladies here willing to support you. If there is anything I can do...please let me know. When you are up for it, let me know and I will share a story of a dear friend of mine who also lost her baby and her story after that. I will wait until you are ready to hear it though.

Anthony will always be a part of you, and he was so incredibly lucky to have been born to a family that will always love and remember him.

Big hugs...God bless to you.

Robin

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:02am
Allyson,

Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for your loss. It must have been such a shock after everything going so well for so long. You and your DH will be in my thoughts and prayers.

((((HUGS))))

Bobbi

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:05am
I am so sorry that you and your DH are going through this. I will be thinking of you and your family. We will all be here for you if you need us.

I can't imagine the pain you are going through and don't know exactly what to say, so I'm just going to pray for you and send you ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))).

Holly

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:06am
Oh I have no idea what to say. Holding you tight in my prayers.

Mt. Dust

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:07am
Sweet Allyson,

I am so sorry. I just don't know what to say. My heart is just breaking for you and your husband. Please take care of yourselves.

Hugs.

Gia

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:16am
Allyson, I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope you and DH can find comfort in each other during this time, and remember that we are all here for you too.

Amy

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