I lost my baby

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I lost my baby
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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 9:20am
I just wanted to let you know that we lost our baby on April 16th.

I was having lots of cramping on April 15th, and had bright red blood - my DH rushed me to L&D where they said I was 10 centimeters and my bag was about to burst. Baby was ok, his HB was 170 and he was kicking up a storm. They rushed me into emergency C-section where he was born on April 15 and lived 34 hours. He was doing fine for the first 30 hours, he was trying to breathe on his own and everything, but then he got blood in his lungs and he couldn't fight it.

I have been in a state of shock this whole week, I had no idea that this would happen to me, I had no problems through out my pregnancy and the baby was healthy. I have what is called an incompetant cervix. My cervix will start to dialate without me feeling anything, then my body will realize this is happening and I will start having contractions and go into labor. By the time this happened to me, it was too late to stop it. My OB says next time I get PG I will have a stitch put in my cervix to prevent it from dialating, and I will never have a vaginal birth, which really upset me, but at this point I will be thankful to even have another child.

My DH and I are absolutely heartbroken, I was 24 weeks and couldn't have imagined this would have happened. The only thing getting us through is knowing there is always another chance, but I miss being pregnant so much...I miss feeling him kick and I miss the beautiful feeling I felt.

I wish you all the happiness and hope you are all blessed with healthy miracles from God.

Allyson EDD 8/5 Anthony Joseph born April 15 passed April 16

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 2:19pm
Allyson,

I am so sorry for your loss. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband, and your little angel. I wish you help in healing, and the chance to have another baby when you and your husband are ready to do so.

(((HUGS)))

Michelle

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 2:54pm
OMG Allyson, how awful for you. I am so so sorry this has happened to you. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

sharlene

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 4:13pm
Allyson - I don't even know what words to say, your post made me cry. I am so sorry for you and your husband. my prayers and my thoughts are with you...
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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 4:47pm
I am so sorry, Allyson. It must be so terribly difficult for you right now. During his very short life, your little Anthony was very loved and I know you will remember him to his future brothers and sisters.

Blessings,

Allison and Rachel

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In reply to: allysonz
Thu, 04-24-2003 - 7:07pm
Oh Allyson,

I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could say. I cannot immagine your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Emily

Emily with William, 5/30/03, and Kathryn, 10/25/06

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In reply to: allysonz
Fri, 04-25-2003 - 10:01am


God I am crying for you here. I'm so sorry. I know nothing will make you forget this time, but I know you will be able to get pregnant again. My thoughts are with you.

Julie

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In reply to: allysonz
Fri, 04-25-2003 - 3:56pm
Allyson,

I am so very sorry for your and DH's loss. I will remember you all in my prayers.

Hugs,

Michelle

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In reply to: allysonz
Fri, 04-25-2003 - 8:28pm
oh,honey....lots of good thoughts and prayers for you....such a tragic situation....
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In reply to: allysonz
Sat, 04-26-2003 - 11:40am
I am so sorry. I read your story and couldn't help but to cry. I am on my second pregnancy and currently eighteen weeks. We miscarried our first and I was just a wreck. There was nothing else I wanted more than to have my baby back or a baby. When you set yourself up for the lifestyle change and its taken away its just devestating. We became pregnante again three months later and I worry every day about this little guy. You will have a healthy happy baby. This time around we rented a doppler so we can hear the heart beat which calms me down to know she/he is still there. Good luck to you and your partner. No one understands the pain and disappointment until you go thru it.
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Wed, 04-30-2003 - 2:10am
Allyson sweetie. I don't know what to say. I am praying for you and your DH. Only time can heal a wound like this. I cannot even imagine. My heart and soul goes out to you.

Barb (from the TTCYFC board)