Too scared to make the call.
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|Tue, 10-04-2011 - 9:43am|
Maybe a better word would be apprehensive. Going by my LMP I am 4w5d pg. I assume I am more like 4w3d. I am sitting here staring at 3 names on a piece of paper knowing I should make that phone call to schedule a first appointment. I don't know what my problem is, but it is giving me such anxiety. This is my 10th pregnancy. I have 2 healthy boys, but the rest have been losses. I tried calling one office a few days ago and they said they could get me in at the end of October, but I left a message with the nurse asking if I could get bloodwork prior to then, b/c of my history. I also had an ectopic that failed to respond to methotrexate treatment and I ended up rupturing and bleeding out for a couple of days (lost my right tube). I know I want to find out if this pregnancy is going OK, but at the same time it seems like everytime I have called an OB in the past and scheduled an appointment or went in for bloodwork, the pregnancy ended. Is ignorance truely bliss? I just don't know.
I am also concerned about symptoms or the lack there of. My stomach is always queasy, but my boobs are not sore, my aereolas don't seem to have darkened that much and I do not feel any more tired than usual. I had a lot of cramping last night, but it wasn't the tearing/burning sensation I have had in the past when I have miscarried. I wish I could just relax and enjoy this.